Happy Halloween



We had a fun Halloween. It was Baby M's first holiday! We dressed him up in a pumpkin shirt during the day and then he had a Skeleton costume that matched Little man's. We got a lot of compliments but they weren't my favorite that R's mom has made. Little man's pumpkin and Eeyo.re costumes were much cuter. These did have glow in the dark paint around the bones though which was really cute. They were also made of fleece because it's been really cold here but low and behold it was near 80 degrees today, haha. It did get chilly though once the sun went down so the fleece worked out okay. R missed it all, just like last year so I took lots of pictures so he could feel like he was here. My brother was here staying for a couple of days while R was gone so he helped us carve our pumpkins this morning. It's been hard to get excited about this holiday because having no money makes it hard to do the things that I would normally do. We made the very best of it though and ended up having a great time.



I've had a pretty tough week. If I start thinking about what I've had to do this week I start to cry so needless to say I try not to think about it. I've applied for welfare, food stamps and WI.C. So yeah, life is definitely hard right now. I'm waiting to hear about Medi.caid for the kids. It just makes me sick. Between R and I we have three bachelor's degrees and two master's degrees. We aren't supposed to be having to go through this. People all have their opinions about what we "should" do and that's pissing me off too. My mom thinks R should go find some minimum wage job but we decided between the two of us that I could make more money subbing and tutoring than he could ever make working at some minimum wage job. We both can't work because of child care and we definitely can't afford daycare. Everyone is telling us not to look out of state or give up on MI but damn we can't go on like this for too much longer. R is 30 years old and ready for a good career job that's going to have staying power. He took a step back taking his last job and I'm tired of him having to climb down the ladder, rather than up. I want him to be happy and I want him to find a job that is going to allow our family to do more than make ends meet.



There's a potential position that he's applied for at U.CLA in CA. It pays a lot and even with the cost of living we would definitely be able to do more than make ends meet. A girl he used to work with down in FL works there now and is putting in a good word for him. Her and her husband have very good positions at the university and are well known so I know R will get "noticed" for this job but who knows what their candidate pool is like. He still has not heard a word from any of the jobs he applied for lately here in MI. None of the ones he's applied for lately have called him back.