Amazing Weekend
R and I got a romantic night away from the kids in northern MI from Saturday to Sunday. It was wonderful and we had such a great time. We actually went up north for a wedding, my friend A, my teaching partner from FL. She is actually from MI and has since moved from FL to MD. It was an outdoor wedding right near the water and the weather couldn't have turned out better. It was rainy and nasty down by where we lived but as we drove north the sky became blue and gorgeous.
We dropped the kiddos off at my parent's house which was half way and it was my first night away from Baby M. I was not worried or sad in the least, I was ready for a night away! R has been on interviews and at conferences a couple times so he's gotten to enjoy some baby free nights. I booked a very, very cheap room because I know we don't have any money. I just couldn't miss this wedding though, my friend would have been devastated. Our room turned out being much lower than what I had originally booked it for so we ended up getting a brand new, totally remodeled room for only $44. It was awesome!
We attended the wedding and reception and were in bed by 11:30pm. The next morning we slept in until 9 am!!!!!!!!!!!! R and I got up and went running along the water and through down town, came back and showered and then went for coffee. We wandered around down town after reading and paper and drinking our coffee outside and then got lunch on our way out of town. It was utter and complete heaven. We SO needed that 24 hours for us and to enjoy ourselves. It's actually probably going to be considered our early anniversary gift.
R got a second phone interview for the same place that he interviewed for on Friday morning, let's hope this is it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Friday, October 10, 2008
Indian Summer
I'm so excited about the weather we are having this weekend. It's going to be in the mid to upper 70's and sunny which will be so nice. R took Little man up to his parents house this weekend and I'm home with Baby M. Things aren't going very well so I asked R's mom to call and ask if he wanted to go up there this weekend. We both need some time away from each other. Whenever times get tough our marriage crumbles to the ground. R doesn't handle stress well and never wants to talk about his feelings. So what usually happens is that he keeps it all in until it blows up. This week was the blow up and it was nasty. It breaks my heart to see him like this and then to be on the receiving end of all the hurtful comments is heart wrenching.
I'm not so sure that we are going to make it. He isn't happy apparently with me and bad times just manifest his feelings. Back in 2003 I had moved down to FL to get a teaching position and we were doing the long distance thing. It worked for awhile but he's not much of phone communicator and I was having a terrible first year teaching so we broke up for awhile. It was December and I had flown into Chic.ago for Christm.as. Chic.ago is "our" place and we were having a special Christ.mas trip and then from there were driving back to MI. I broke up with him in Chi.cago, which was terrible of me but I was so confused and stupid. So we spent Christ.mas apart, but still went to see Mamm.a Mi.a because we already had the tickets. We left each other after Chris.mas on good terms.
It was sometime in early January 2004 and I raced home after work, changed and went to the gym to work out. After working out I got back in the car and checked my phone and I had a couple of missed calls from R. I called him back as I was leaving and he said "I mailed you a package, did you get it today." I said that I didn't get anything but that I was on my way home and would check once I got home. I pulled into the driveway and there was R sitting on my front porch. (I lived with my uncle in his condo so actually it was his front porch) Needless to say I had no idea he was coming and was in shock! He had flown all the way down to FL because he wanted me back. It was like a movie yet it was a real.
It makes me so sad to the point of crying that our lives have gotten so complicated and our situation has gotten so bad because I know he loved me back then and would have said kind, special, wonderful things about me, and I would have done the same. I just want the old days back. The days where we were totally in love and loved spending time with each other. I'm just as much to blame. I've turned into my mother and definitely have some of her bad qualities which don't work well in a marriage. I desperately want to be back to the person he fell in love with when the relationship was fresh. Part of me though wonders what my life would be like right now had he not shown up on my porch. Would he be better off, would I be better off? I don't know if we are good together. The people who we are today are different. When life piles on stresses and situations it changes a person and we've both been through so much and we're changed.
He says he wants to leave and part ways but I don't know if he really deep down wants that or if it's just his stress and frustration talking. He no longer likes the person I am and I have to say that I don't really like the person he's become in some aspects either. Deep down I love him because he is a good person. Part of the reason he is the way he is, is because of this family upbringing. He didn't have a good childhood and it's so deeply affected him. I had a fairly good childhood but have issues with my father. So between the both of us there are enough issues to keep a shrink paid for a lifetime. I want to be a better person and change so of my negative qualities but I don't know how. I've been to a couple of therapist/psychologists and haven't really had any luck. We went to marriage counseling and I thought we had made progress and were doing better but he says that nothing changed. Then the job loss happened and everything has gone to sh** (pardon my language). I don't know what to do and I have no idea where my life if going to lead. It's scary and so sad.
I'm going to use this weekend to reflect. I need to really think about things and our situation. I'm trying so very hard to stay optimistic.
I'm so excited about the weather we are having this weekend. It's going to be in the mid to upper 70's and sunny which will be so nice. R took Little man up to his parents house this weekend and I'm home with Baby M. Things aren't going very well so I asked R's mom to call and ask if he wanted to go up there this weekend. We both need some time away from each other. Whenever times get tough our marriage crumbles to the ground. R doesn't handle stress well and never wants to talk about his feelings. So what usually happens is that he keeps it all in until it blows up. This week was the blow up and it was nasty. It breaks my heart to see him like this and then to be on the receiving end of all the hurtful comments is heart wrenching.
I'm not so sure that we are going to make it. He isn't happy apparently with me and bad times just manifest his feelings. Back in 2003 I had moved down to FL to get a teaching position and we were doing the long distance thing. It worked for awhile but he's not much of phone communicator and I was having a terrible first year teaching so we broke up for awhile. It was December and I had flown into Chic.ago for Christm.as. Chic.ago is "our" place and we were having a special Christ.mas trip and then from there were driving back to MI. I broke up with him in Chi.cago, which was terrible of me but I was so confused and stupid. So we spent Christ.mas apart, but still went to see Mamm.a Mi.a because we already had the tickets. We left each other after Chris.mas on good terms.
It was sometime in early January 2004 and I raced home after work, changed and went to the gym to work out. After working out I got back in the car and checked my phone and I had a couple of missed calls from R. I called him back as I was leaving and he said "I mailed you a package, did you get it today." I said that I didn't get anything but that I was on my way home and would check once I got home. I pulled into the driveway and there was R sitting on my front porch. (I lived with my uncle in his condo so actually it was his front porch) Needless to say I had no idea he was coming and was in shock! He had flown all the way down to FL because he wanted me back. It was like a movie yet it was a real.
It makes me so sad to the point of crying that our lives have gotten so complicated and our situation has gotten so bad because I know he loved me back then and would have said kind, special, wonderful things about me, and I would have done the same. I just want the old days back. The days where we were totally in love and loved spending time with each other. I'm just as much to blame. I've turned into my mother and definitely have some of her bad qualities which don't work well in a marriage. I desperately want to be back to the person he fell in love with when the relationship was fresh. Part of me though wonders what my life would be like right now had he not shown up on my porch. Would he be better off, would I be better off? I don't know if we are good together. The people who we are today are different. When life piles on stresses and situations it changes a person and we've both been through so much and we're changed.
He says he wants to leave and part ways but I don't know if he really deep down wants that or if it's just his stress and frustration talking. He no longer likes the person I am and I have to say that I don't really like the person he's become in some aspects either. Deep down I love him because he is a good person. Part of the reason he is the way he is, is because of this family upbringing. He didn't have a good childhood and it's so deeply affected him. I had a fairly good childhood but have issues with my father. So between the both of us there are enough issues to keep a shrink paid for a lifetime. I want to be a better person and change so of my negative qualities but I don't know how. I've been to a couple of therapist/psychologists and haven't really had any luck. We went to marriage counseling and I thought we had made progress and were doing better but he says that nothing changed. Then the job loss happened and everything has gone to sh** (pardon my language). I don't know what to do and I have no idea where my life if going to lead. It's scary and so sad.
I'm going to use this weekend to reflect. I need to really think about things and our situation. I'm trying so very hard to stay optimistic.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Time Change
So I think I've been having the worst time with the time change, things just seem off. I think I didn't get enough sleep on Saturday night. R and I stayed up late watching basketball and then we got up at pretty much the same time. I've just been feeling really groggy the past two days and I haven't really felt rested. I think this is partly because I can't stop having crazy dreams. It is so true that you have the weirdest dreams when you are pregnant. I have dreams that are so high intense and real feeling that when I wake up I don't feel like I slept a wink. I just want to sleep and not dream constantly about strange things!
Little man woke up at 5:30am and wanted breakfast this morning. I tried to get him to go back to sleep but he wasn't having it, so R made him breakfast and put a show on for him while I continued to sleep. I feel like a bad mommy for letting him watch TV but I was soooo tired. He made up for it during nap because he slept for 3 hours so that was nice. Again, I tried to take a nap and ended up having a very intense, weird dream and almost felt worse than I didn't before the nap. I guess it's just going to take a few days to get back on track and for the dreams, I'm just going to have to deal, things could be worse.
There is supposed to be warmer temps coming our way this week so hopefully we'll get to enjoy some mid 40 degree temps, which I will take any day over 20's and 30's! Spring is on it's way! (I hope!!)
So I think I've been having the worst time with the time change, things just seem off. I think I didn't get enough sleep on Saturday night. R and I stayed up late watching basketball and then we got up at pretty much the same time. I've just been feeling really groggy the past two days and I haven't really felt rested. I think this is partly because I can't stop having crazy dreams. It is so true that you have the weirdest dreams when you are pregnant. I have dreams that are so high intense and real feeling that when I wake up I don't feel like I slept a wink. I just want to sleep and not dream constantly about strange things!
Little man woke up at 5:30am and wanted breakfast this morning. I tried to get him to go back to sleep but he wasn't having it, so R made him breakfast and put a show on for him while I continued to sleep. I feel like a bad mommy for letting him watch TV but I was soooo tired. He made up for it during nap because he slept for 3 hours so that was nice. Again, I tried to take a nap and ended up having a very intense, weird dream and almost felt worse than I didn't before the nap. I guess it's just going to take a few days to get back on track and for the dreams, I'm just going to have to deal, things could be worse.
There is supposed to be warmer temps coming our way this week so hopefully we'll get to enjoy some mid 40 degree temps, which I will take any day over 20's and 30's! Spring is on it's way! (I hope!!)
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
I'm Done!!!
I finally proofread my paper last night and made some corrections so I could submit it and be done!!!! I'm looking forward to being done with classes but it's also bittersweet. I have two more classes to take and they aren't offered until the summer 2008 semester. So this spring I won't have any classes. I'm looking forward to having more time to devote to unpacking and organizing the house, playing with Little man, and just overall more time for me; however I'm also going to lose total touch with the academic crowd. I know this may sound weird but though I never met any of the people in my online classes it still felt as though we were colleagues and the group work, readings, and assignments kept my mind intellectually challenged. I know there are other ways to intellectually challenge myself but it was nice to have the semester mapped out and be on the prof plan for learning and completing the work.
I've been helping a friend with his resume and cover letter and the process is sort of coming to an end. We revised the resume and I've given feedback. The cover letter has been a work in progress for many weeks now and finally it's near completed. I sort of got a little sad yesterday when I thought about the process coming to an end. He was sooooo thankful for my help and yet I was soooooo thankful for the opportunity. I feel as though I'm losing intellect staying at home just because I'm not in m y field of work everyday with colleagues and putting all my knowledge to practice. School filled this void for the past 6 months and now I am not going to have that. It's just bittersweet because yes I'm looking forward to some time off but what I'm not looking forward to is losing touch with the academic world.
Winter is pretty much here. This past weekend we got a bit of a storm on Saturday, snow changing to freezing rain. We tried to go buy groceries and get home before it got bad on Saturday night but that didn't work. The roads were pretty slippery on our way home. Luckily we only had a couple miles to drive. Sunday morning R, Little man, and I went out and cleared the sidewalks and driveway of all the snow. Man that is an awesome work out! It was in the 40's on Sunday so it rained all day and got really foggy. We had a full weekend planned but didn't do much of it because of the weather.
Little man is up so I must be going. I had 100 posts last time, it doesn't seem like I've written 100!!! Hope everyone is sending sunshine and warmth to MI :o)
I finally proofread my paper last night and made some corrections so I could submit it and be done!!!! I'm looking forward to being done with classes but it's also bittersweet. I have two more classes to take and they aren't offered until the summer 2008 semester. So this spring I won't have any classes. I'm looking forward to having more time to devote to unpacking and organizing the house, playing with Little man, and just overall more time for me; however I'm also going to lose total touch with the academic crowd. I know this may sound weird but though I never met any of the people in my online classes it still felt as though we were colleagues and the group work, readings, and assignments kept my mind intellectually challenged. I know there are other ways to intellectually challenge myself but it was nice to have the semester mapped out and be on the prof plan for learning and completing the work.
I've been helping a friend with his resume and cover letter and the process is sort of coming to an end. We revised the resume and I've given feedback. The cover letter has been a work in progress for many weeks now and finally it's near completed. I sort of got a little sad yesterday when I thought about the process coming to an end. He was sooooo thankful for my help and yet I was soooooo thankful for the opportunity. I feel as though I'm losing intellect staying at home just because I'm not in m y field of work everyday with colleagues and putting all my knowledge to practice. School filled this void for the past 6 months and now I am not going to have that. It's just bittersweet because yes I'm looking forward to some time off but what I'm not looking forward to is losing touch with the academic world.
Winter is pretty much here. This past weekend we got a bit of a storm on Saturday, snow changing to freezing rain. We tried to go buy groceries and get home before it got bad on Saturday night but that didn't work. The roads were pretty slippery on our way home. Luckily we only had a couple miles to drive. Sunday morning R, Little man, and I went out and cleared the sidewalks and driveway of all the snow. Man that is an awesome work out! It was in the 40's on Sunday so it rained all day and got really foggy. We had a full weekend planned but didn't do much of it because of the weather.
Little man is up so I must be going. I had 100 posts last time, it doesn't seem like I've written 100!!! Hope everyone is sending sunshine and warmth to MI :o)
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Awesome Weather!!!
I cannot believe that it's the first week in October in MI and we've been having temps well into the 80's. I attended a baby shower with my mother in law yesterday and part of it was outside. I was sweating and soooo hot. The weather has been unbelievable! Yesterday we had a very busy day. We left to go up north to my in laws house at 9am. The baby shower was at 12:30 and we were there until 3pm. It was fun, I hadn't been to a shower in awhile. R went with his friend out on the boat and to lunch because Little Man was sleeping. We got home right around the time that he had woken up. R got home shortly after that and then he and I took a walk downtown and visited all my favorite shops. To end our visit we went to my favorite pizza place and had what I consider to be awesome pizza, although, no pizza critic would agree. Then we headed for home and arrive exactly 12 hours after we left at 9pm.
It was so cute because I think it's the first time Little Man has seen stars. He woke up when we got home so R was showing him the stars as we were walking in. We could never see stars in FL and then he's never up that late to be able to see them on normal nights here in MI. This morning when he woke up we overhead him via the monitor, "where are all the stars?" It was precious!
Today I am stuck doing all the work that I didn't get to from the rest of the week. I'm pretty behind, so I'm sure it will take most of the day. I actually don't mind though because I'm happy to sit and relax reading and writing after such a busy day yesterday. Our weekends always seem so busy that I actually look forward to the weeks. Well I hope everyone is having a nice weekend. I just wanted to wish GFF good luck on defending her dissertation tomorrow and wish Chas a fun filled FL vacation!!!!!!
I cannot believe that it's the first week in October in MI and we've been having temps well into the 80's. I attended a baby shower with my mother in law yesterday and part of it was outside. I was sweating and soooo hot. The weather has been unbelievable! Yesterday we had a very busy day. We left to go up north to my in laws house at 9am. The baby shower was at 12:30 and we were there until 3pm. It was fun, I hadn't been to a shower in awhile. R went with his friend out on the boat and to lunch because Little Man was sleeping. We got home right around the time that he had woken up. R got home shortly after that and then he and I took a walk downtown and visited all my favorite shops. To end our visit we went to my favorite pizza place and had what I consider to be awesome pizza, although, no pizza critic would agree. Then we headed for home and arrive exactly 12 hours after we left at 9pm.
It was so cute because I think it's the first time Little Man has seen stars. He woke up when we got home so R was showing him the stars as we were walking in. We could never see stars in FL and then he's never up that late to be able to see them on normal nights here in MI. This morning when he woke up we overhead him via the monitor, "where are all the stars?" It was precious!
Today I am stuck doing all the work that I didn't get to from the rest of the week. I'm pretty behind, so I'm sure it will take most of the day. I actually don't mind though because I'm happy to sit and relax reading and writing after such a busy day yesterday. Our weekends always seem so busy that I actually look forward to the weeks. Well I hope everyone is having a nice weekend. I just wanted to wish GFF good luck on defending her dissertation tomorrow and wish Chas a fun filled FL vacation!!!!!!
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Art Festival Doubtful
Well we woke up all ready to go to the art festival today but it's now pouring cats and dogs. It was pretty cold yesterday, but I suppose we should have gone yesterday. Being as busy as I usually am I don't really get a chance to catch the news or weather forecasts, my own fault. It looks nasty outside, one of those days you just want to curl up on the couch and watch movies. We were going to go this morning and be home by the time Little Man needs to nap at around 1-1:30. I've always wanted to go to this and since this is our last February down here I thought this was our chance. Guess we'll have to plan a February vacation down here sometime and attend then.
I got my paper written last night along with my fourth discussion question posted. I had a lot of reading to catch up on so that's why I wanted to get it all done so we could enjoy the art festival today. We did end up going to the mall for a little while yesterday to get Little Man an outfit for his 2 year old pictures. I got a cute short overall outfit with a bug theme. They didn't have anythink really cute like they usually do but they were having a sale so I was happy about that. I wanted something a little summery looking since he already has a winter looking school picture. The weather is winter feeling though so I'm sure how the outfit is going to go with the weather tomorrow.
There are many phone calls and e-mails that I need to catch up on today and cleaning so maybe this was a good thing that the weather is crappy. We have Little Man's teacher coming over to watch him while we attend an event on Tuesday night so I want to make sure that the house isn't looking like a tornado went through. I remember when I used to babysit for kids at the daycare I used to work at, all the other teachers would always ask about the house and the decorating. I can tell you right now that we have zero decorating style because I never wanted to invest the time or money into an apartment. I always dreamed of decorating our first house. I probably should have just went ahead and done it because we'll probably never get a house and if we do there won't be a cent for decorating.
R did the taxes yesterday for three hours and we owe $2700, WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!! He had $10,000 from his side job at the university in Michigan that was MAJORLY undertaxed and he didn't realize it until yesterday. Here we thought we were get around $900 back, but nope, we have to come up with almost three thousand dollars in a little less than 2 months. Here I've been desperately trying to save money for the move and now we're going to be lucky if we have any money left by the time the move rolls around! Money sucks! I hate the fact that whenever things seem like they are looking up, something ALWAYS comes up! I was just working on the budget yesterday and we were going to have extra money at the end of the month to put into savings, which very rarely happens because it's so expensive to live down here. Oh well I hope everything works out okay. The last thing I want to do is put things on our credit cards because I've been paying them off FOREVER.
Well we woke up all ready to go to the art festival today but it's now pouring cats and dogs. It was pretty cold yesterday, but I suppose we should have gone yesterday. Being as busy as I usually am I don't really get a chance to catch the news or weather forecasts, my own fault. It looks nasty outside, one of those days you just want to curl up on the couch and watch movies. We were going to go this morning and be home by the time Little Man needs to nap at around 1-1:30. I've always wanted to go to this and since this is our last February down here I thought this was our chance. Guess we'll have to plan a February vacation down here sometime and attend then.
I got my paper written last night along with my fourth discussion question posted. I had a lot of reading to catch up on so that's why I wanted to get it all done so we could enjoy the art festival today. We did end up going to the mall for a little while yesterday to get Little Man an outfit for his 2 year old pictures. I got a cute short overall outfit with a bug theme. They didn't have anythink really cute like they usually do but they were having a sale so I was happy about that. I wanted something a little summery looking since he already has a winter looking school picture. The weather is winter feeling though so I'm sure how the outfit is going to go with the weather tomorrow.
There are many phone calls and e-mails that I need to catch up on today and cleaning so maybe this was a good thing that the weather is crappy. We have Little Man's teacher coming over to watch him while we attend an event on Tuesday night so I want to make sure that the house isn't looking like a tornado went through. I remember when I used to babysit for kids at the daycare I used to work at, all the other teachers would always ask about the house and the decorating. I can tell you right now that we have zero decorating style because I never wanted to invest the time or money into an apartment. I always dreamed of decorating our first house. I probably should have just went ahead and done it because we'll probably never get a house and if we do there won't be a cent for decorating.
R did the taxes yesterday for three hours and we owe $2700, WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!! He had $10,000 from his side job at the university in Michigan that was MAJORLY undertaxed and he didn't realize it until yesterday. Here we thought we were get around $900 back, but nope, we have to come up with almost three thousand dollars in a little less than 2 months. Here I've been desperately trying to save money for the move and now we're going to be lucky if we have any money left by the time the move rolls around! Money sucks! I hate the fact that whenever things seem like they are looking up, something ALWAYS comes up! I was just working on the budget yesterday and we were going to have extra money at the end of the month to put into savings, which very rarely happens because it's so expensive to live down here. Oh well I hope everything works out okay. The last thing I want to do is put things on our credit cards because I've been paying them off FOREVER.
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