So Far, Okay

My body is not reacting well to being back at work and school, but I feel like I'm (mentally)doing pretty well. I'm enjoying a nice beer while watching MSU play basketball. I've decided that tonight is a relaxing night. R and I took the night off from running. On Saturday I was really proud of myself......I ran 6.2 miles, the most ever in my life! I actually didn't feel very good afterwards, but it was very empowering. We took Sunday off and then Monday is our usual night off. Last night we did 3 but our time was really bad. We are going to start working on improving our mile time which will in turn improve our longer distance runs. I was really tired today and he was equally as tired so we took tonight off. We'll pick back up tomorrow. Friday is our normal day off and then we'll do Saturday and Sunday. My knees were killing me on Sunday after the 6 miles but they quickly recovered. So the dishes are sitting in the sink, I haven't done anything for work, I've sat on the couch and watched DVR taped episodes of "Surviving Motherhood" and "Rachael Ray", and I'm trying to mentally clear my mind and let my body relax.

I have a really hard time letting myself just relax. I worry way too much and I have anxiety about mundane things in my life. That's something I'm trying to work on, because it causes my body to go all out of whack. I wish I could have the feeling of being off on break, while actually having my responsibilities that I have now. Ahhhh the best of both worlds would be wonderful. I gave myself some relaxing time before I picked up Little Man from daycare today since I didn't get any yesterday. Hopefully I can make it through the next two days of work sucessfully and start doing some class reading so that I can feel like I have a handle on life. Wish me luck!!! Oh and if there is anyone reading this blog, please comment!!!!! I just started this blog and I feel like no one reads it, which is fine because I'm doing it more to get my feelings off my chest, but I love getting ideas, advice, support, etc... from people. It gives me more of a perspective and I enjoy looking at things from someone else's shoes.