Good Things Come to Those Who Wait

I read the bible before bed most every night and it was one night last week that I came upon a good passage on patience and it really seemed to apply to our situation. We are both being very patient waiting to hear for jobs we have applied for. My question is how does one stay calm and patient? I truly felt inspired after happening to read that specific passage and I thought in my superstitious sort of way that it was a sign, giving me strength to keep my head up and stay optimistic. I'm not sure if any of you have ever felt this way but every time the phone rings I deeply hope that it's regarding a job. Every time the mail comes I hope that there will be something. Every time I check jobs I hope that there is something new that I can apply for or that there are jobs in R's field. It's becoming a very sad existence. This cycle has led me to seek other options or formulate back up plans, "just in case."

The problem that I have come to realize is that I started making too many back up plans and people have been pointing it out to me. I pondered it a great deal last night and decided that I'm so wrapped up in coming up with multiple back up plans that I'm creating one big mess! I was considering going back to school for an extra endorsement on my teaching certificate and after proper reconsideration I felt that I would abandon that due to high tuition costs, since I'm still considered "out of state" and due to the fact that we aren't sure exactly where we are going to be living. I also was going to apply at the local community college for some teaching positions, though not completely qualified, but I decided that I would also abandon that.

I swear job hunting and back up plans are engulfing me like quick sand and after a harsh reality check last night from my frustrated husband I took his thoughts into serious consideration. The thing that I am left with are the scrap booking business and hobby, which I probably acted on too quickly without proper thought, but which interests me a lot and makes me happy. I am also a mother, which I think I've been doing a less than stellar job at lately because I've been so occupied with everything else. I bought a great Creative Resources for the Early Childhood Classroom book today so I can start having fun crafts, finger plays, songs, activities, etc... to do with Little Man because swimming is now over and we're going to be bored out of our mind. My class is finishing up this next week and then I'll have a few weeks off before I start my other online class at the end of August.

I hope the "good things come to those who wait and who are patient" is true and I hope that I can stay sane and strong enough.