So Cold!!!!

So much for the hot temps we had been having. It's down into the 40's and 50's with frost probably coming in the next couple days. I didn't even go outside today because it was so cold. I guess I'm looking forward to being able to wear sweaters and other cold weather clothing, but it also really rubs in that were actually back in MI.

So R got word from his references that they had been contacted from the people at the job he interviewed for and he got sent paperwork for a background check. I imagine that within the next week or so we should know if he has the job or not. This is so bittersweet because it's not in the location we were hoping for, but it's a job. I guess we're at the point where we can't really be picky.

On to R and I, we're not doing well. I hesitate to blog about this because this is only my side of the story. I'm coming to think that maybe we aren't going to work out. I just don't think that I'm the person for him. We have great times but there are also really bad times. It just seems like there are the same reoccuring issues. I know a lot of the come from me and I saw a psychologist last year because I am aware of the issues that always seem to creep into my relationships. I just wonder if there comes a point where I'm just who I am. He's just ultimately frustrated and I try to work on things only to end up back at the start, the same person I've always been. Now I don't believe in changing for someone, these are issues that I personally find that I need work on and he also agrees. I just don't know what to do. He's pretty much given up and not really interested in hearing me say that I'll work on them or helping me at all. Granted they aren't his problems. Well I have to get to bed because I have a lot of school work to get done tomorrow. Keep me in your prayers!