3 weeks and 3:30am

Okay so I cannot believe that in somewhere around 3 weeks, maybe sooner, we'll have our new little baby boy here in our arms. I'm starting to freak out a little bit!!!! I'm feeling like I just want to keep him in my belly forever because I'm so scared of the thought of having two kids. I know this is probably normal but I would love some advice as to how I might deal with this fear. I'm not worried about loving another child, just adapting to life with two. The biggest worry is that Little man is so used to being the center of attention and that having this new baby will turn his perfect life upside down. I am fully aware and plan to include him in helping and taking on the new Big Brother role, but I'm worried about having enough time and energy for him. I suppose that it will appear and that I'm making too big of a deal about it, but since he's older I feel like it's going to be harder. He's had us to himself longer and is more used to the universe revolving around him.

So on to the 3:30am.....the time I woke up this morning. It's not that I couldn't sleep, it's that my husband couldn't. He was worrying about work and laying there awake so he decided to get up. That caused me to lay there worrying about him. I tried desperately to fall back asleep but it didn't work. I had to drive my mom to the airport at 5:30am so I was already going to be up early, but hadn't planned on being up THAT early. I got home about 6:10am from taking my mom and ended up laying back down in bed. I didn't feel like I slept a wink but I did wake up at 7:15am to the sound of Little man watching TV so I must have dozed off a little bit. Getting up was rough but I ended up taking a 2 hour nap when Little man was napping.

I'm dead tired again so I'm off to bed. Surprisingly the laundry is almost done!!! I feel like there is so much more to do though before the baby arrives.