Looking Up

So today I decided that I was going to make a sit down breakfast and lunch for the family mainly so I can be sure that R is eating actual meals and that they are somewhat healthy. When he's stressed he just eats and eats and usually they are snacks that aren't healthy. I took advantage of our family breakfast to give him a pep talk. Reminding him that we need to stay positive and that things could be much worse. I told him that things will work out and that we just need to take steps in the right direction. He confessed that he doesn't like the routine of staying home, and really wants a real job to be able to go to every day. I know it's hard for him because I remember what it was like when I first started staying home, you miss work and having that purpose in your life. Anyway to make a long story short, I think my pep talk worked and today was a much better day.

The one thing I'm really feeling overwhelmed by is that the house always seems to be a mess. I saw on Opr.ah yesterday that people in debt usually have cluttery houses. It made me feel bad because I knew exactly who Su.ze Orma.n was describing, us! I look around and we have so much stuff and so much debt. I'm sure they go hand in hand. Though R has gotten one million times better we still have tons of crap. I really want to work on simplifying all our stuff. I'm really great at organizing but then bad at keeping everything that way, especially when I'm busy.

It's taken me a long time to write this post and in the time it's taken me R got an interview!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He has to call tomorrow to set up the exact day and time but it's a really good job and we are so excited. I think this will really renew his spirits and make him at least feel as though the wheels are turning. Please keep us in your prayers, we need this so bad!