Losing Hope

So I didn't get a sub job again today, and not only did I not get a job I also had two more cancelled on me. This time I at least got a call from a school secretary before they were cancelled and I also got an explanation. The teacher was going to a training and it was full so she couldn't get in, therefore, they didn't need me. It sucks, but it was at least nice to have some forewarning along with an explanation. I don't have any jobs scheduled for next week, so hopefully I'll be able to get some soon. Luckily, I have a job tomorrow that hasn't been cancelled so at least I'll be working two days out of this week!

The second thing that's really bugging me is my online tutoring job. I've been working for this company for about 4 1/2 years and I'm still at the Tutor 1 level. You start out as a probationary tutor and then move up to Tutor 1, 2, and 3. Well after working for this long I feel as though I should have been promoted by now. I do work my butt off and yet my mentor always finds some issues with my work. Apparently, you have to be 100% perfect, 100% of the time in order to move up. My issue is that I'm meeting the goals she's setting and nothing ever seems good enough. I'm sick of online tutoring yet I don't have the option to just give it up because we need the money. I feel as though they should bring up problems that repeatedly show up in your sessions. If something happens once or isn't a repeated problem is it really worth bringing up? I just feel like they are so picky. We just got our pay cut because of the stupid economy so not being promoted and losing pay is just icing on the cake.

I'm just getting really frustrated. This situation is just getting old. I've been so positive and optimistic but I really am having a hard time keeping that up. I know that things have got to get better but then I start to really wonder if things will in fact get better because as far as 2009 goes it seems as though things are getting worse. I just hope that we'll be back on our feet by June when my subbing and tutoring will spot.