Pet Peeve
So throughout my life there is one pet peeve that really boils my blood. If you say you are going to do something then you should do it. In college it was the infamous "I'll call you tomorrow" issued by a guy. So not that I was super pathetic and literally sat by the phone, but I did get my hopes up that the next day the phone was going to ring and that cute boy whom I met the night before would be on the line. It happens with girlfriends too, you make plans to do something and then you never hear from that person until way later and she issues some lame apology that "things got busy." I'm sure you can see where this is going. R never got a call on Friday. The guy he interviewed with, the one in charge, said that he would for sure call every candidate on Friday to let them know their status before he leaves for his week long vacation. Well our damn phone never rang. I think I'm more torn up about it than R is, every time I think about it and I start crying.
Things just don't seem right anymore. I'm a little worried because all I feel like doing is sleeping, though I don't actually give in and let myself sleep the day away. I forget to eat because nothing ever sounds good enough to eat. Exercise has pretty much fallen by the wayside. I really have no interest in relations with my husband (sorry TMI, I know) I have spontaneously started crying a lot lately. This just freaking sucks. I'm not going to allow our situation to spiral me into some stupid depression. I forced myself to go out running/walking yesterday and ended up clocking three miles, one with a 40+ pound kid in a wagon. I don't let myself take naps or sleep in terribly late even when I do get the chance. I'm going to do better about eating meals and snacks and drinking water. I can't deal with depression on top of everything else we are dealing with right now. R has been so great, trying to help me stay positive and always there for me, but I don't talk to him much about this because I don't want to pull him into it with me. Just what we need to people who get sucked into a deep depression and can't take care of our kids. Hopefully, we hear something soon or get some positive news.
2 comments:
It is really really annoying if you're told they are going to call and they don't. You're not alone in feeling mad/upset by something like this. I'm sorry things are so tough at the moment. I would just take 1 day at a time and focus on the positives where possible. I know it's easy to write and harder to do, but you will get through this as a strong family unit and then be able to use it in the future to draw strength from. You know that when you get through this you'll get through anything - right.
Oh sweetie that totally sucks. I am so mad too now!!! Is it possible to call the office today and ask them what happened?
Also - it does sound like you are becoming depressed, so please keep taking care of yourself with exercise and healthy eating. Omega-3's and the B vitamins supposedly help the most with your mood.
Just keep hanging in there, that's all any of us can really do right now.
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