So sad

I just took my mom to the airport, I can't believe it's been 10 days already! It's just so nice having her here because Little man loves playing and spending time with his grandma. Plus she helps me out too so I feel less stressed when I have her around. R helps too, but three people are better than two! I hate the feeling of being alone down here with no extended family and I don't really think about it much, except when they are here and then they leave. We have 3 1/2 more months though so I guess that's something to look forward to!

On another bad note, R bought a Palm pilot today that he's hiding from me and I just happen to find the box and receipt in his car. Over $200 and we're moving in 3 1/2 months and supposed to be trying to save money. So much for him only buying gas and groceries and necessities in 2007! It's so draining living with a person that spends money like it's his job and like we have a huge big fat green money tree growing outside our window! Damn wounldn't that be WONDERFUL!!!!! I just used some of my student loan money to pay off the furniture that was zapping us near 30% interest, but it's not like it's money that we had, it's debt just being relocated to somewhere else! The student loan interest is at least WAY less than 30%, so I guess in the long run we are saving money.

I always tend to get depressed when my mom leaves because I realize how hard life is down here without family, but I know I have to pull myself out of this rut and just move on otherwise I'll never make it. I have to stay strong, but it's so fucking hard and sometimes I really find it hard to get through the days. I'm not feeling well and I really want a nap, but Little man happens to be up after only napping 1 hour. He usually is sleeping for at least 2 hours :o( Guess I'd better go and get him!