So Confused

I really wish that I had trust in dr's but in this day and age it seems as though they aren't the most level headed people. I went to my appt. this morning and I was the same. I left feeling so confused because I don't know what to do and I don't feel capable of making these decisions. The dr. didn't really help the situation. He wanted to induce me tomorrow and then gave me the option of Wednesday or Friday. I chose Friday but I really wanted Sept 2nd. They couldn't do Sept 2nd because a dr. I've never seen before that's not even in their practice is on call. After getting home with my little paper telling me my induction is on Friday I just had this sense of confusion, am I making the right choice, why can't this baby just come on it's own, why do I have all this say? In this type of situation I feel as though the dr. should know and do what's best. He's very nice but he just doesn't give me the "I'm in charge reassuring feeling." It makes me angry that they are so quick to induce and that they won't let people go overdue. Also, I still don't know if this baby is breech or not. They will apparently give me an ultrasound before they induce me.

I just want to cry. I don't feel qualified to "pick" the day my baby is going to be born. Another thing that's bothering me is that he okay'd them to use Pito.cin. Apparently they are going to break my water and if I don't progress they are going to use Pito.cin, which I am NOT okay with. I am not going to allow them to give me Pito.cin. Although, I just did some more research and apparently it's ok to use sparingly if labor is stalled. I just don't know how I feel about it especially since it makes labor pains worse. The nurse double checked with the dr and he for sure said it was okay, which again leaves me wishing that this baby would just come on it's own. I hate this situation that I'm in and I'm super angry that I'm not able to enjoy the end of this pregnancy like I feel I should be able to do.

R isn't very comfortable with the whole situation either and I so wish that he was able to attend my appt. with me today. He would like to see them induce me only after I'm overdue. This is also really stupid but I hate the date August 29th, sorry if anyone has a birthday that day but I really dislike the date. I wanted to avoid having to "pick" my son's birthday if at all possible! Why can't this baby just come on it's own????? Please, please pray that he comes before Friday on his own.