The Latest
I've been meaning to blog for several days but times are definitely busy! I had my baby shower this past weekend and that was very nice. We got catered food from a local Italian restaurant. My mom ordered a cake from a bakery and came down on Friday night to spend the whole weekend. The shower was a noon on Saturday and that was a bit stressful because there was a lot to do to get ready for the shower. There were only about 10 people because quite a few couldn't make it but it ended up being the perfect amount. I got some cute clothes but was pretty disappointed that people didn't shop from the registry because there were some things that we needed really bad and since R isn't working we have no money to purchase the items on our own. I ended up taking several things back to Babi.es R U.S the day after the shower so I could get the things that I really needed.
Baby M was sleeping really well but recently has been up pretty much most of the night. It's been trial and error to see what his deal is and how to remedy him being nocturnal. Last night actually went pretty well, though I won't be splitting shifts with R. He thought it would be a good idea if we took shifts. I would stay up with him until around 1am and then R would get up and stay up for a period, repeat. R went to bed around 10:30-11pm and I stayed up with Baby M. I ended up getting him to go to sleep and actually got some rest from about 11pm until 2am. Usually the night time is when Baby M is fussy and cries a lot so I was prepared for a long couple hours, but pleasantly surprised that he slept and slept well for that matter. I know I'm probably a bad parent for doing this but he sleeps really well on his bopp.y so we prop him very carefully and safely on the couch and I was sleeping on the couch right next to him. When he woke up at around 2am I fed him and then changed his diaper and figured it was a good time to wake up R and retreat to bed for a couple more hours of sleep. Well R did not have any luck and Baby M was crying and very fussy and so I got up at 3am and tried to help but that just made R mad because he wanted me to sleep and I think was insulted that I got up to "try to help" but I couldn't sleep with him crying. Finally I got up at 4am because R was just not being effective and was frustrated and it just wasn't a good situation. I'm much better able to deal with being up at night and better able to get him to calm down and actually get some sleep. Plus it's too hard to communicate with another person at that hour of the morning so there is consistency and both people are on the same page. I ended up getting him to go to sleep pretty much immediately at 4am and we both slept until 6am when my alarm went off.
The nights are definitely hard but I'm just going to take responsibility. If R was working I would be doing it anyway so I mine as well get used to it and give Baby M some consistency at night rather than being passed back and forth and one person not knowing what the other is doing. I think I can grab some naps through out the day so hopefully this works out better. I'm done putting up with R's frustration in the middle of the night. I'm not blaming him because it's damn frustrating when a baby won't stop crying and you feel as though you've done everything you can think of and usually R keeps his cool but I think it's wearing on him and things aren't running smooth.
Still no news about any jobs :( R never heard back from that phone interview so he didn't make it to the next step with that job. He's applied for several but apparently he's been passed up or things are just running really slowly. I jump every time the phone rings praying that the caller ID will light up with the name of a potential job. He did get news that there is a possibility for him to do some contract work for a friend who works at a university down in FL. He's calling about that today. I can't believe that it's already the end of September. I'm starting to look into getting government assistance and researching what programs are out there for the kids and health insurance. It makes me sick to my stomach to know that we both have freaking master's degrees and I'm typing welfare and W.I.C into my goo.gle search engine. Times like this really makes me wonder if we should have ever left F.L. in the first place. Though it was expensive we both had really good paying jobs and insurance.
Yesterday all of us went to the dentist. We've been trying to get all dr appts out of the way before insurance runs out in a week. (so scary to think about!) Luckily, we all had great visits and no cavities. R and I got a full set of X-rays and a cleaning, everything looks great. Little Man had his first visit and he did SO GREAT!!!!! It was really fun for him and the hygienist was really wonderful. It helped that she had three kids of her own all under 5. I got some really cute pictures. My mom stayed and went with us so she could watch Baby M while we were getting our teeth cleaned because R and I had to go at the same time. Next week I have my check up at the OB/GY.N and Baby M has his one month check up. We successfully made it through the colds that Little man and Baby M had so hopefully we stay healthy until we get insurance again.
I'm going to try to blog more because it's a sort of therapy for me when I get stressed. I'm staying positive though and really hoping that we are okay during this tough time. I've been tutoring a lot so I'm able to make money to cover my bills and contribute to the family. I'll keep everyone updated about how things are going!
Showing posts with label Baby #2. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Baby #2. Show all posts
Monday, September 22, 2008
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Friday, September 12, 2008
So Tired!
I'm about 2/3 of the way through the birth story so that will be posted soon, I promise. I wrote the majority of it in one sitting and then let it sit for awhile so I could be sure to add little details here and there that I forgot. This week has gone pretty good. The past 2 nights though Baby M has been nocturnal so that's been really rough. He sleeps most of the day but then gets really fussy and stack feeds from about 10pm-1am. Last night he didn't settle down for bed until around 3:30am. It makes for a really long day. I always have grand plans to catch a nap here or there but that never really seems to pan out. I can't complain though because I've at least been getting a shower on a daily basis :o)
Little man has been doing really well. He really enjoys preschool! It's been a little over a week since he started and he's already sick though :o( It's just a cold, but I'm really hoping he doesn't pass it kindly to his little bro. Mainly he just has a stuffy/runny nose and coughing a little. R and I have been making it a point to spend individual time with him as well as show him one on one attention with the baby not around. I took him to the neighbors to play yesterday for about an hour and he really enjoyed that. Overall, he's been doing very well and definitely loves his baby bro.
We've been getting a lot of rain lately but we've had some just gorgeous days with cooler temps and sunshine. I've been trying to get out for a walk everyday with Baby M which usually puts him to sleep. Baby M is much feistier than Little man. He's picking up his head for pretty long periods of time for a newborn. He always has his hands up by his face which makes it nearly impossible to feed him. Every time I need to feed him I have to pull his arms down and then the quickly pop right back in front of his face. He his so strong so pulling his arms away feels like I'm going to break him! He's already scooted himself out of his bopp.y.
Feeding has been going pretty well. He's pretty much eating every 2-3 hours but then at night I'm not sure what his deal is because he prefers to be attached to me for 2-3 hours straight from like 10pm-12 or 1am. I guess we're going to try to keep him up more during the day in hopes that he'll sleep more during the night. Prior to the night before last he was sleeping 5-6 hours at a time, still fussy from about 10pm-12am but after that he'd pretty much sleep for a good stretch without waking up too much. I would have to wake him up to feed so I wasn't too uncomfortable. I should have known that was too good to be true.
Well that's all for now. I'm going to work on finishing the birth story today and hopefully get some more pictures posted. We have a really cute one of the four of us.
I'm about 2/3 of the way through the birth story so that will be posted soon, I promise. I wrote the majority of it in one sitting and then let it sit for awhile so I could be sure to add little details here and there that I forgot. This week has gone pretty good. The past 2 nights though Baby M has been nocturnal so that's been really rough. He sleeps most of the day but then gets really fussy and stack feeds from about 10pm-1am. Last night he didn't settle down for bed until around 3:30am. It makes for a really long day. I always have grand plans to catch a nap here or there but that never really seems to pan out. I can't complain though because I've at least been getting a shower on a daily basis :o)
Little man has been doing really well. He really enjoys preschool! It's been a little over a week since he started and he's already sick though :o( It's just a cold, but I'm really hoping he doesn't pass it kindly to his little bro. Mainly he just has a stuffy/runny nose and coughing a little. R and I have been making it a point to spend individual time with him as well as show him one on one attention with the baby not around. I took him to the neighbors to play yesterday for about an hour and he really enjoyed that. Overall, he's been doing very well and definitely loves his baby bro.
We've been getting a lot of rain lately but we've had some just gorgeous days with cooler temps and sunshine. I've been trying to get out for a walk everyday with Baby M which usually puts him to sleep. Baby M is much feistier than Little man. He's picking up his head for pretty long periods of time for a newborn. He always has his hands up by his face which makes it nearly impossible to feed him. Every time I need to feed him I have to pull his arms down and then the quickly pop right back in front of his face. He his so strong so pulling his arms away feels like I'm going to break him! He's already scooted himself out of his bopp.y.
Feeding has been going pretty well. He's pretty much eating every 2-3 hours but then at night I'm not sure what his deal is because he prefers to be attached to me for 2-3 hours straight from like 10pm-12 or 1am. I guess we're going to try to keep him up more during the day in hopes that he'll sleep more during the night. Prior to the night before last he was sleeping 5-6 hours at a time, still fussy from about 10pm-12am but after that he'd pretty much sleep for a good stretch without waking up too much. I would have to wake him up to feed so I wasn't too uncomfortable. I should have known that was too good to be true.
Well that's all for now. I'm going to work on finishing the birth story today and hopefully get some more pictures posted. We have a really cute one of the four of us.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
The Birth Story
I'm going to try to be VERY detailed in this because I constantly wished that I would have kept a closer record of Little man's birth because I felt like I forgot so much and couldn't remember things. So on to the story.......
Monday, September 1st
We had dinner a little later on Labor day. Little man and R were going on a camp out in the backyard. Earlier in the day they set up the tent and I helped Little man pack up all the things he would need for a night out in our backyard. After dinner I cleaned up and then took pictures of the boys going out for their campout. After dinner I sat down to watch some news and as I was getting ready for bed my normal period feeling cramps started again, but were a bit stronger. They started getting closer together and more intense. They were still down low and so I wasn't sure if it was "real" labor because I read that "real" contractions are all over the whole belly. I decided to take a shower in case it was the real thing, mainly because a shower always made me feel better and lessened the feeling of the contractions. It didn't help and they were really getting painful. I attempted to time them and they were somewhat around 5min apart and lasted for about a minute. I finished getting ready, blew dry my hair, put on make up, and then decided it was time to go fetch R from the tent.
I went out to the tent and woke up R and then went and told my brother that we were going to go to the hospital. R was sleeping and very confused. I finished packing the last minute stuff and then made a pile of all the stuff that needed packed into the car. We got everything packed and seriously had the longest ride to the hospital. It was only about a 5 minute drive but man it felt like an hour.
September 2, 2008
We pulled up to the curb a little after 12am and went in to get admitted. When we arrived in the room there was no one at the desk the nurses were all sitting on their butts and told us to have a seat that the woman would be right back. That was super annoying. The woman got back a couple minutes later and proceeded to ask us a million questions. I thought the purpose of preregistering at the hospital was to avoid the 10,000 questions but they asked them anyway.
We finally got moved to the "holding room" as I call it and I had to give a urine sample, which I had a hard time doing and got undressed. They put the fetal monitors on and then the on call dr came in to exam me. I had to get an IV with fluids and I was indeed in active labor. I was 5-6cm dialated and the head was right there. While I was in this room R went and moved the car and man he did that really fast! We then moved to our birthing room and R went out to the car to get our things. He got the Dav.e Matthe.ws Ban.d playlist all set up that I had made. It was great! I endured the contractions and was managing pretty good. R on the other hand was not doing well. Apparently sleeping outside unleashed his allergies REALLY bad! He was sneezing, blowing his nose, washing his hands, sniffling, and miserable. Of course we had no meds for him packed because I had no idea that he was going to have an attack in the middle of my labor (note to self, pack meds for him next time!) We were applying our Bradley Method relaxation and strategies but it was getting to the point that I was unable to get into relaxation because he was so disrupting. It's not his fault but I was getting so annoyed and then add in the fact that I was really really tired I decided at 2am that I was going to get an epidural.
The nurse said that I needed another bag of fluids and it would be about another hour before I would get it. There was a nurse change of shift at 3am so my first nurse Beth left and I got my new nurse Allison. It was exactly 3am and the anesthesiologist came in and gave me epidural. It wasn't a pleasant experience but it did help me get some much needed rest. Right after the epidural I got a red Popsicle, which I had been craving all day. It was really weird that I had been wanting a Popsicle all day, that certainly wasn't the circumstances I expected to have my craving fulfilled, haha. I was able to sleep/rest for 2 hours. I did have to get a catheter to empty my bladder so that it wouldn't get in the way because it got too full. At the time I got the epidural I was 7-8cm. They checked me 2 hours later at 5am and I was 10cm and ready to try pushing. She broke my water and I tried pushing. The epidural was left on and they wanted to see if I could effectively push. I tried one round of pushes and I did very well so they just left the epidural on and I continued to push with just the nurse and R there. The one thing that the epidural did slow down was my contractions. They were about 5 minutes apart so I had a lot of wait time in between pushes. I pushed for about 1 1/2 hours and then my dr arrived. At that point there were quite a few drs in the room. I ended up getting an episiotomy and then they had to use the vacuum one time to help get the baby the whole way out. I really did not like the sound of the episiotomy but I didn't feel anything so that was nice. I could still move my legs and could feel the pressure of pushing the baby out.
He was born at 7:49am on his due date, September 2nd 2008!!!! He weighed 7lbs 15ozs and was 20 1/2 inches long. He had dark hair and looked very different from Little man. He was put on my chest/belly for a little time and then taken across the room to get cleaned up. He had a bit of mucus in his throat so they were doing a lot of suctioning and he had some oxygen. It was pretty cute because he was removing the oxygen mask with this hands. He was over there for quite a long time and I was getting stitched up by 2 female drs. My dr started the stitches but then had to get to his C-section that he put off to come deliver me. It was weird to watch them stitch me up, it was my first time ever getting them. I was in the recovery room until about 11am. I was able to get breakfast right after I delivered because I was starving so by the time I moved rooms I was ready for lunch.
I got my IV out after I peed and then gathered up my stuff and was able to move to my permanent room. My mom had arrived around 10am and was able to see Baby M and then went to my new room with me. I walked to my new room and my mom and R carried all my stuff. After getting to my new room I got to fill out what I wanted for lunch and dinner. It was like a restaurant!!!!! When I had Little man I was on a special diet from my dr so I didn't get to choose anything I wanted to eat. That was definitely exciting, haha! My mom left to go back to our house and relieve my brother and to help with Little man while R stayed with me at the hospital. He ended up leaving to go get Little man and bring him to the hospital. We had gifts for the boys to exchange and that was just precious. Little man got Baby M a Bab.y Einst.ein toy that goes on his car seat and then Baby M got Little man this Fish.er Pri.ce set of dinosaurs. He loved it!!!!
I requested that the lactation specialist come in just because it had been 3.5 years since I had breastfed and I wanted a little reassurance that I was remembering correctly how to get him to latch, etc.. She ended up coming in when my mom and brother were visiting so we pulled the curtain and she proceeded to look over my technique. She discovered that Baby M was tongue tied, which meant that the little flap of skin that connects the tongue to the bottom of the mouth was very short and also very far out on the tongue so he was unable to move his tongue. It was affecting his latch and making it painful for me to breast feed. He wasn't able to extend his tongue under my nipple so there was a little procedure he could have done in which they clip the skin. I was told to discuss it with my pediatrician when he came in to check him over the next morning. Later in the day the nurse informed us that we could have the procedure done right at the hospital the next day so that was a relief that we wouldn't have to schedule it to be done at a dr's office later on. I really wanted to get it taken care of as soon as possible because it was affecting breast feeding.
R ended up coming back in the evening to stay the night with me, bless his heart, because he had a very uncomfortable window seat to sleep on and had to get up at 5am to go to work. He was working on Wednesday because he had to work two days during the week and he obviously took the birth day off and then was taking Thursday off because it was Little man's first day of school. I didn't mind though because I just got to hang out at the hospital all day and wait for him to get off from work. Neither one of us slept that great because the nurses were in every couple hours checking me and Baby M and then coming in to ask me if he'd eaten and how much. On a side note can I just say that he was a pooping machine. In the first day he pooped like 4 or 5 times and he was only required to have one bowel movement his first day. He was definitely ahead of the game! The nurse came in around 9pm to take him for his hearing test. He was gone quite a long time but his hearing is great so nothing to be worried about with that.
September 3, 2008
The next morning the pediatrician came in around 7am and checked over Baby M. A doctor also came in and checked me over so it was already turning out to be a busy morning. Both him and I were doing well. I brought up the tongue tied issue and he scheduled the procedure with the ear, nose, and throat dr for later on that afternoon. He was also going to be circumcised later in the day. He was taken in the morning to get his bath and hospital pictures, which came out so freaking cute! My mom, brother, and Little man came up around lunch time so Little man could eat his lunch with me. They stayed for a couple hours. I was able to shower and get ready while my mom watched Baby M and Little man. After they left Baby M got taken for his tongue clipping and then once he was back from that it wasn't too long before he went for his circumcision. I was able to get a little sleep throughout the day and got everything packed up. The nurse came in and went over my discharge papers and I signed everything in the afternoon, just so I was ready whenever we wanted to leave. R got to the hospital right after work around 5:30pm and we we on our way home around 6pm. It was raining and crappy weather, though it was warm.
We arrived home and were greeted with lots of pictures and a cute "It's a Boy!" sign in the front yard. We carried everything inside and then sat down and had cake celebrating Little man's first day of school the next day. I definitely wanted to make him feel special. He was very excited to go to school the next day. My mom had to leave shortly after cake because she had to work the next day but my brother was staying to help out. The first night home was rough, Baby M didn't sleep much. It reminded me A LOT of our first night home with Little man. The next morning we always wished we had just stayed at the hospital the extra night, but when you're at the hospital you just want to go home because they wake you up and bug you so much.
Ok, I kinda slacked at the end but I will probably go back and insert details as I think of them, but I want to get this posted because it's been almost 2 weeks, how time flies!
I'm going to try to be VERY detailed in this because I constantly wished that I would have kept a closer record of Little man's birth because I felt like I forgot so much and couldn't remember things. So on to the story.......
Monday, September 1st
We had dinner a little later on Labor day. Little man and R were going on a camp out in the backyard. Earlier in the day they set up the tent and I helped Little man pack up all the things he would need for a night out in our backyard. After dinner I cleaned up and then took pictures of the boys going out for their campout. After dinner I sat down to watch some news and as I was getting ready for bed my normal period feeling cramps started again, but were a bit stronger. They started getting closer together and more intense. They were still down low and so I wasn't sure if it was "real" labor because I read that "real" contractions are all over the whole belly. I decided to take a shower in case it was the real thing, mainly because a shower always made me feel better and lessened the feeling of the contractions. It didn't help and they were really getting painful. I attempted to time them and they were somewhat around 5min apart and lasted for about a minute. I finished getting ready, blew dry my hair, put on make up, and then decided it was time to go fetch R from the tent.
I went out to the tent and woke up R and then went and told my brother that we were going to go to the hospital. R was sleeping and very confused. I finished packing the last minute stuff and then made a pile of all the stuff that needed packed into the car. We got everything packed and seriously had the longest ride to the hospital. It was only about a 5 minute drive but man it felt like an hour.
September 2, 2008
We pulled up to the curb a little after 12am and went in to get admitted. When we arrived in the room there was no one at the desk the nurses were all sitting on their butts and told us to have a seat that the woman would be right back. That was super annoying. The woman got back a couple minutes later and proceeded to ask us a million questions. I thought the purpose of preregistering at the hospital was to avoid the 10,000 questions but they asked them anyway.
We finally got moved to the "holding room" as I call it and I had to give a urine sample, which I had a hard time doing and got undressed. They put the fetal monitors on and then the on call dr came in to exam me. I had to get an IV with fluids and I was indeed in active labor. I was 5-6cm dialated and the head was right there. While I was in this room R went and moved the car and man he did that really fast! We then moved to our birthing room and R went out to the car to get our things. He got the Dav.e Matthe.ws Ban.d playlist all set up that I had made. It was great! I endured the contractions and was managing pretty good. R on the other hand was not doing well. Apparently sleeping outside unleashed his allergies REALLY bad! He was sneezing, blowing his nose, washing his hands, sniffling, and miserable. Of course we had no meds for him packed because I had no idea that he was going to have an attack in the middle of my labor (note to self, pack meds for him next time!) We were applying our Bradley Method relaxation and strategies but it was getting to the point that I was unable to get into relaxation because he was so disrupting. It's not his fault but I was getting so annoyed and then add in the fact that I was really really tired I decided at 2am that I was going to get an epidural.
The nurse said that I needed another bag of fluids and it would be about another hour before I would get it. There was a nurse change of shift at 3am so my first nurse Beth left and I got my new nurse Allison. It was exactly 3am and the anesthesiologist came in and gave me epidural. It wasn't a pleasant experience but it did help me get some much needed rest. Right after the epidural I got a red Popsicle, which I had been craving all day. It was really weird that I had been wanting a Popsicle all day, that certainly wasn't the circumstances I expected to have my craving fulfilled, haha. I was able to sleep/rest for 2 hours. I did have to get a catheter to empty my bladder so that it wouldn't get in the way because it got too full. At the time I got the epidural I was 7-8cm. They checked me 2 hours later at 5am and I was 10cm and ready to try pushing. She broke my water and I tried pushing. The epidural was left on and they wanted to see if I could effectively push. I tried one round of pushes and I did very well so they just left the epidural on and I continued to push with just the nurse and R there. The one thing that the epidural did slow down was my contractions. They were about 5 minutes apart so I had a lot of wait time in between pushes. I pushed for about 1 1/2 hours and then my dr arrived. At that point there were quite a few drs in the room. I ended up getting an episiotomy and then they had to use the vacuum one time to help get the baby the whole way out. I really did not like the sound of the episiotomy but I didn't feel anything so that was nice. I could still move my legs and could feel the pressure of pushing the baby out.
He was born at 7:49am on his due date, September 2nd 2008!!!! He weighed 7lbs 15ozs and was 20 1/2 inches long. He had dark hair and looked very different from Little man. He was put on my chest/belly for a little time and then taken across the room to get cleaned up. He had a bit of mucus in his throat so they were doing a lot of suctioning and he had some oxygen. It was pretty cute because he was removing the oxygen mask with this hands. He was over there for quite a long time and I was getting stitched up by 2 female drs. My dr started the stitches but then had to get to his C-section that he put off to come deliver me. It was weird to watch them stitch me up, it was my first time ever getting them. I was in the recovery room until about 11am. I was able to get breakfast right after I delivered because I was starving so by the time I moved rooms I was ready for lunch.
I got my IV out after I peed and then gathered up my stuff and was able to move to my permanent room. My mom had arrived around 10am and was able to see Baby M and then went to my new room with me. I walked to my new room and my mom and R carried all my stuff. After getting to my new room I got to fill out what I wanted for lunch and dinner. It was like a restaurant!!!!! When I had Little man I was on a special diet from my dr so I didn't get to choose anything I wanted to eat. That was definitely exciting, haha! My mom left to go back to our house and relieve my brother and to help with Little man while R stayed with me at the hospital. He ended up leaving to go get Little man and bring him to the hospital. We had gifts for the boys to exchange and that was just precious. Little man got Baby M a Bab.y Einst.ein toy that goes on his car seat and then Baby M got Little man this Fish.er Pri.ce set of dinosaurs. He loved it!!!!
I requested that the lactation specialist come in just because it had been 3.5 years since I had breastfed and I wanted a little reassurance that I was remembering correctly how to get him to latch, etc.. She ended up coming in when my mom and brother were visiting so we pulled the curtain and she proceeded to look over my technique. She discovered that Baby M was tongue tied, which meant that the little flap of skin that connects the tongue to the bottom of the mouth was very short and also very far out on the tongue so he was unable to move his tongue. It was affecting his latch and making it painful for me to breast feed. He wasn't able to extend his tongue under my nipple so there was a little procedure he could have done in which they clip the skin. I was told to discuss it with my pediatrician when he came in to check him over the next morning. Later in the day the nurse informed us that we could have the procedure done right at the hospital the next day so that was a relief that we wouldn't have to schedule it to be done at a dr's office later on. I really wanted to get it taken care of as soon as possible because it was affecting breast feeding.
R ended up coming back in the evening to stay the night with me, bless his heart, because he had a very uncomfortable window seat to sleep on and had to get up at 5am to go to work. He was working on Wednesday because he had to work two days during the week and he obviously took the birth day off and then was taking Thursday off because it was Little man's first day of school. I didn't mind though because I just got to hang out at the hospital all day and wait for him to get off from work. Neither one of us slept that great because the nurses were in every couple hours checking me and Baby M and then coming in to ask me if he'd eaten and how much. On a side note can I just say that he was a pooping machine. In the first day he pooped like 4 or 5 times and he was only required to have one bowel movement his first day. He was definitely ahead of the game! The nurse came in around 9pm to take him for his hearing test. He was gone quite a long time but his hearing is great so nothing to be worried about with that.
September 3, 2008
The next morning the pediatrician came in around 7am and checked over Baby M. A doctor also came in and checked me over so it was already turning out to be a busy morning. Both him and I were doing well. I brought up the tongue tied issue and he scheduled the procedure with the ear, nose, and throat dr for later on that afternoon. He was also going to be circumcised later in the day. He was taken in the morning to get his bath and hospital pictures, which came out so freaking cute! My mom, brother, and Little man came up around lunch time so Little man could eat his lunch with me. They stayed for a couple hours. I was able to shower and get ready while my mom watched Baby M and Little man. After they left Baby M got taken for his tongue clipping and then once he was back from that it wasn't too long before he went for his circumcision. I was able to get a little sleep throughout the day and got everything packed up. The nurse came in and went over my discharge papers and I signed everything in the afternoon, just so I was ready whenever we wanted to leave. R got to the hospital right after work around 5:30pm and we we on our way home around 6pm. It was raining and crappy weather, though it was warm.
We arrived home and were greeted with lots of pictures and a cute "It's a Boy!" sign in the front yard. We carried everything inside and then sat down and had cake celebrating Little man's first day of school the next day. I definitely wanted to make him feel special. He was very excited to go to school the next day. My mom had to leave shortly after cake because she had to work the next day but my brother was staying to help out. The first night home was rough, Baby M didn't sleep much. It reminded me A LOT of our first night home with Little man. The next morning we always wished we had just stayed at the hospital the extra night, but when you're at the hospital you just want to go home because they wake you up and bug you so much.
Ok, I kinda slacked at the end but I will probably go back and insert details as I think of them, but I want to get this posted because it's been almost 2 weeks, how time flies!
Friday, September 05, 2008
Life with Two
Wow, things have been busy. There are so many things that I'm wishing I would have done before the birth but oh well I'm slowly getting them accomplished. I should have gotten all my pump parts washed and sterilized because I have to check today that I'm making enough milk. I took Baby M to the dr this morning because he's not urinating enough. It's really hard with the circumcision to tell if he peed or not because we're having to use so much petroleum jelly to cover the circumcision. The dr. told me he looked great and that I should pump both breasts to make sure I'm getting at least 2-3 ozs. I guess I should have supplemented with formula until my milk came in but no one really talked to me about that so I was unaware. Guess I should have figured that one out being a second time mom but I didn't have to do that with Little man.
My brother has been helping out so much with Little man. R worked Wednesday and then today is his last day. My hormones have been getting the best of me lately thinking about both of us not working, but he's applied for several jobs so hopefully he'll have some luck. I guess I'm most scared about losing insurance right when Little man is starting preschool. He's been away from the daycare/preschool setting for over a year so I'm sure his immunity isn't what it once was and then with the new baby I'm scared he'll be bringing home germs to share, guess we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Little man's first day of preschool was a parent and child day and was shortened from 9-10:30. He had a really great time and we took lots of really cute pictures. I'm really going to try to blog in detail about his first day and everything that's gone on for the past couple days so I have the account to look back on.
There's so much more to write but I have to get lunch made and feed Baby M soon so it will have to wait. Oh can I just say that the birth worked out just the way I had hoped and I'm so glad we didn't have the induction on the 29th! Thanks for all your advice, support and comments, they mean so much to me!!!!!!!
Wow, things have been busy. There are so many things that I'm wishing I would have done before the birth but oh well I'm slowly getting them accomplished. I should have gotten all my pump parts washed and sterilized because I have to check today that I'm making enough milk. I took Baby M to the dr this morning because he's not urinating enough. It's really hard with the circumcision to tell if he peed or not because we're having to use so much petroleum jelly to cover the circumcision. The dr. told me he looked great and that I should pump both breasts to make sure I'm getting at least 2-3 ozs. I guess I should have supplemented with formula until my milk came in but no one really talked to me about that so I was unaware. Guess I should have figured that one out being a second time mom but I didn't have to do that with Little man.
My brother has been helping out so much with Little man. R worked Wednesday and then today is his last day. My hormones have been getting the best of me lately thinking about both of us not working, but he's applied for several jobs so hopefully he'll have some luck. I guess I'm most scared about losing insurance right when Little man is starting preschool. He's been away from the daycare/preschool setting for over a year so I'm sure his immunity isn't what it once was and then with the new baby I'm scared he'll be bringing home germs to share, guess we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Little man's first day of preschool was a parent and child day and was shortened from 9-10:30. He had a really great time and we took lots of really cute pictures. I'm really going to try to blog in detail about his first day and everything that's gone on for the past couple days so I have the account to look back on.
There's so much more to write but I have to get lunch made and feed Baby M soon so it will have to wait. Oh can I just say that the birth worked out just the way I had hoped and I'm so glad we didn't have the induction on the 29th! Thanks for all your advice, support and comments, they mean so much to me!!!!!!!
Monday, September 01, 2008
1 More Day?
Last night I was having period like cramps for most of the night but those have been going on for quite a long time and nothing ever comes of them. My brother decided to go to a baseball game today so we will have to wait 2 hours for my mom to get here if anything happens anyway, so that's kind of annoying. I really wish he would have went home this weekend and "taken a break" and let her come down. He gets very antsy and restless so I figured his contentment would soon be wearing low. Sure enough, I was right! Yesterday he went to watch the baseball game at the bar and was gone for like 6 hours and then today he's actually going to the game with his ex girlfriend so he'll be gone for most of the day.
Tomorrow is my dr's appt. I'm so glad it's so early in the morning so I don't have to wait all day to find out the latest. Hopefully the MD that we are seeing tomorrow will be more level headed and since R will be there with me the appt will go smooth and hopefully we'll feel better about how the end of the pregnancy progresses. I already know that they won't let me go more than a week overdue if I want a VBAC so for sure the 9th will be our cut off, which I am fine with. I've officially entered the "uncomfortable" stage. Though I've stopped gaining weight my belly just feels so heavy and it's getting harder to move. That hasn't stopped me from walking 1-2 miles everyday but it's definitely not as easy as it used to be. If nothing happens before my appt. I'll update after that tomorrow morning. Hope everyone has a GREAT Labor Day!
Last night I was having period like cramps for most of the night but those have been going on for quite a long time and nothing ever comes of them. My brother decided to go to a baseball game today so we will have to wait 2 hours for my mom to get here if anything happens anyway, so that's kind of annoying. I really wish he would have went home this weekend and "taken a break" and let her come down. He gets very antsy and restless so I figured his contentment would soon be wearing low. Sure enough, I was right! Yesterday he went to watch the baseball game at the bar and was gone for like 6 hours and then today he's actually going to the game with his ex girlfriend so he'll be gone for most of the day.
Tomorrow is my dr's appt. I'm so glad it's so early in the morning so I don't have to wait all day to find out the latest. Hopefully the MD that we are seeing tomorrow will be more level headed and since R will be there with me the appt will go smooth and hopefully we'll feel better about how the end of the pregnancy progresses. I already know that they won't let me go more than a week overdue if I want a VBAC so for sure the 9th will be our cut off, which I am fine with. I've officially entered the "uncomfortable" stage. Though I've stopped gaining weight my belly just feels so heavy and it's getting harder to move. That hasn't stopped me from walking 1-2 miles everyday but it's definitely not as easy as it used to be. If nothing happens before my appt. I'll update after that tomorrow morning. Hope everyone has a GREAT Labor Day!
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Nothing New
We've just been relaxing and hanging around home this weekend. R's been working out in the yard and I've been making yummy food to have for all our meals. Yesterday we watched lots of football and today we are laying low trying to stay cool. We're going to have really high temps for the next week or so, right in time for school to start, go figure. It's nice though, however, I did enjoy our really cool temps we just got done having.
I've been walking everyday but apparently it's not sending me into labor. Sex just produces many painful Brax.ton Hi.cks but hasn't started any real contractions. I can't help to think that this baby is breech, it's the same exact scenario that I went through with Little man. I'm glad R will be going to the dr with me on Tuesday, hopefully having a man there to talk to the dr. will get something accomplished. I'm going to be so incredibly PISSED OFF if I have to have another C-section because the stupid dr's wouldn't give me another ultrasound. I will have nothing good to say about the practice or any of the dr's and definitely will never go back. I feel like it's a conspiracy, that they are doing it on purpose, though I'm sure they wouldn't be that nasty. I've been having bad dreams about the labor, hospital, dr's etc.... Hopefully everything will work out just fine.
We've just been relaxing and hanging around home this weekend. R's been working out in the yard and I've been making yummy food to have for all our meals. Yesterday we watched lots of football and today we are laying low trying to stay cool. We're going to have really high temps for the next week or so, right in time for school to start, go figure. It's nice though, however, I did enjoy our really cool temps we just got done having.
I've been walking everyday but apparently it's not sending me into labor. Sex just produces many painful Brax.ton Hi.cks but hasn't started any real contractions. I can't help to think that this baby is breech, it's the same exact scenario that I went through with Little man. I'm glad R will be going to the dr with me on Tuesday, hopefully having a man there to talk to the dr. will get something accomplished. I'm going to be so incredibly PISSED OFF if I have to have another C-section because the stupid dr's wouldn't give me another ultrasound. I will have nothing good to say about the practice or any of the dr's and definitely will never go back. I feel like it's a conspiracy, that they are doing it on purpose, though I'm sure they wouldn't be that nasty. I've been having bad dreams about the labor, hospital, dr's etc.... Hopefully everything will work out just fine.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Our Decision
Update: The nurse called and the induction is cancelled. My dr apparently was like "Ok, whatever she wants to do" but I didn't care for the tone or being in this situation in the first place. It really angers me that you have to be so forceful with health professionals. Why don't they do what's best for the patient.
So I finally made a decision......we're going to wait it out and only be induced if I go overdue. I called the OB nurse and left a message for her to call me back so I can cancel the induction and then I called the dr. office and made my 40 week appt for next Tuesday at 9:30am. My hubby, brother, and I debated it for a long time last night and we all decided why rush this if there are no problems. Also, I'm going to sound so superficial and may offend people by saying this but tomorrow is Mich.ael Jackson and Joh.n Mc.Cain's birthday and though I have no judgements about people who like either person I really don't want to voluntarily choose my child's birthday on the same day as those two individuals. I am a democrat and dislike the whole Micha.el Jackson drama. I know it's not a big deal and probably won't ever come up or be discussed, it was the icing on the cake that further solidified my decision. I made the decision before looking at who had that same birth date. Sometimes I look to Mag.ic 8 balls or horoscopes or other very superficial things to make myself feel better about the decisions that I've made. I know that probably makes me shallow but in some weird sense it makes me feel better. It also makes me feel better to know that I'm at least giving my child the option of when he's ready to make his appearance into the world. If he's ready tomorrow, that's great and I will be happy, but at least I didn't "choose" the day I wanted him to arrive. I'd rather not have that much say. So I'm still waiting for the OB nurse to call me back to cancel the induction but hopefully all will go smooth and she won't give me any crap. I also made sure to schedule my appointment next week with a different dr. who isn't such a drama king.
Update: The nurse called and the induction is cancelled. My dr apparently was like "Ok, whatever she wants to do" but I didn't care for the tone or being in this situation in the first place. It really angers me that you have to be so forceful with health professionals. Why don't they do what's best for the patient.
So I finally made a decision......we're going to wait it out and only be induced if I go overdue. I called the OB nurse and left a message for her to call me back so I can cancel the induction and then I called the dr. office and made my 40 week appt for next Tuesday at 9:30am. My hubby, brother, and I debated it for a long time last night and we all decided why rush this if there are no problems. Also, I'm going to sound so superficial and may offend people by saying this but tomorrow is Mich.ael Jackson and Joh.n Mc.Cain's birthday and though I have no judgements about people who like either person I really don't want to voluntarily choose my child's birthday on the same day as those two individuals. I am a democrat and dislike the whole Micha.el Jackson drama. I know it's not a big deal and probably won't ever come up or be discussed, it was the icing on the cake that further solidified my decision. I made the decision before looking at who had that same birth date. Sometimes I look to Mag.ic 8 balls or horoscopes or other very superficial things to make myself feel better about the decisions that I've made. I know that probably makes me shallow but in some weird sense it makes me feel better. It also makes me feel better to know that I'm at least giving my child the option of when he's ready to make his appearance into the world. If he's ready tomorrow, that's great and I will be happy, but at least I didn't "choose" the day I wanted him to arrive. I'd rather not have that much say. So I'm still waiting for the OB nurse to call me back to cancel the induction but hopefully all will go smooth and she won't give me any crap. I also made sure to schedule my appointment next week with a different dr. who isn't such a drama king.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
My Plan for Today
I've decided that I will try to get this labor started before Friday, and if nothing happens by tomorrow mid morning I will be forced to make a decision about getting induced on Friday. I'm terrible at making decisions and I am always in fear of making "the wrong decision." This decision seems very, very, very important, more serious than any other decision I've ever had to make. I'd love to go with my gut but I'm even having trouble sorting out what my gut is telling me to do. So back to my plan for today.....walk 5 miles. I've walked one so far and am about to embark on my 2nd and possibly 3rd. I'm going to try to get two more in tonight after R gets home from work. I'll keep everyone posted.
I've decided that I will try to get this labor started before Friday, and if nothing happens by tomorrow mid morning I will be forced to make a decision about getting induced on Friday. I'm terrible at making decisions and I am always in fear of making "the wrong decision." This decision seems very, very, very important, more serious than any other decision I've ever had to make. I'd love to go with my gut but I'm even having trouble sorting out what my gut is telling me to do. So back to my plan for today.....walk 5 miles. I've walked one so far and am about to embark on my 2nd and possibly 3rd. I'm going to try to get two more in tonight after R gets home from work. I'll keep everyone posted.
Monday, August 25, 2008
So Confused
I really wish that I had trust in dr's but in this day and age it seems as though they aren't the most level headed people. I went to my appt. this morning and I was the same. I left feeling so confused because I don't know what to do and I don't feel capable of making these decisions. The dr. didn't really help the situation. He wanted to induce me tomorrow and then gave me the option of Wednesday or Friday. I chose Friday but I really wanted Sept 2nd. They couldn't do Sept 2nd because a dr. I've never seen before that's not even in their practice is on call. After getting home with my little paper telling me my induction is on Friday I just had this sense of confusion, am I making the right choice, why can't this baby just come on it's own, why do I have all this say? In this type of situation I feel as though the dr. should know and do what's best. He's very nice but he just doesn't give me the "I'm in charge reassuring feeling." It makes me angry that they are so quick to induce and that they won't let people go overdue. Also, I still don't know if this baby is breech or not. They will apparently give me an ultrasound before they induce me.
I just want to cry. I don't feel qualified to "pick" the day my baby is going to be born. Another thing that's bothering me is that he okay'd them to use Pito.cin. Apparently they are going to break my water and if I don't progress they are going to use Pito.cin, which I am NOT okay with. I am not going to allow them to give me Pito.cin. Although, I just did some more research and apparently it's ok to use sparingly if labor is stalled. I just don't know how I feel about it especially since it makes labor pains worse. The nurse double checked with the dr and he for sure said it was okay, which again leaves me wishing that this baby would just come on it's own. I hate this situation that I'm in and I'm super angry that I'm not able to enjoy the end of this pregnancy like I feel I should be able to do.
R isn't very comfortable with the whole situation either and I so wish that he was able to attend my appt. with me today. He would like to see them induce me only after I'm overdue. This is also really stupid but I hate the date August 29th, sorry if anyone has a birthday that day but I really dislike the date. I wanted to avoid having to "pick" my son's birthday if at all possible! Why can't this baby just come on it's own????? Please, please pray that he comes before Friday on his own.
I really wish that I had trust in dr's but in this day and age it seems as though they aren't the most level headed people. I went to my appt. this morning and I was the same. I left feeling so confused because I don't know what to do and I don't feel capable of making these decisions. The dr. didn't really help the situation. He wanted to induce me tomorrow and then gave me the option of Wednesday or Friday. I chose Friday but I really wanted Sept 2nd. They couldn't do Sept 2nd because a dr. I've never seen before that's not even in their practice is on call. After getting home with my little paper telling me my induction is on Friday I just had this sense of confusion, am I making the right choice, why can't this baby just come on it's own, why do I have all this say? In this type of situation I feel as though the dr. should know and do what's best. He's very nice but he just doesn't give me the "I'm in charge reassuring feeling." It makes me angry that they are so quick to induce and that they won't let people go overdue. Also, I still don't know if this baby is breech or not. They will apparently give me an ultrasound before they induce me.
I just want to cry. I don't feel qualified to "pick" the day my baby is going to be born. Another thing that's bothering me is that he okay'd them to use Pito.cin. Apparently they are going to break my water and if I don't progress they are going to use Pito.cin, which I am NOT okay with. I am not going to allow them to give me Pito.cin. Although, I just did some more research and apparently it's ok to use sparingly if labor is stalled. I just don't know how I feel about it especially since it makes labor pains worse. The nurse double checked with the dr and he for sure said it was okay, which again leaves me wishing that this baby would just come on it's own. I hate this situation that I'm in and I'm super angry that I'm not able to enjoy the end of this pregnancy like I feel I should be able to do.
R isn't very comfortable with the whole situation either and I so wish that he was able to attend my appt. with me today. He would like to see them induce me only after I'm overdue. This is also really stupid but I hate the date August 29th, sorry if anyone has a birthday that day but I really dislike the date. I wanted to avoid having to "pick" my son's birthday if at all possible! Why can't this baby just come on it's own????? Please, please pray that he comes before Friday on his own.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Down to the Single Digits
Well at least on the little counter it says 9 days, but after all, a due date is just an estimate. I was lying in bed this morning getting completely worked up that this baby is breech because it's like deja vu compared to Little man's. Everything has pretty much been identical! All the dr's told me little man was head down, ready, and he wasn't. I was dialated 3cm and then 4, at exactly the same points that I have been this pregnancy. This might be TMI so don't keep reading if you don't care to hear. Hubby and I were having sex to try to get labor started with Little man and I would get contractions and then they would stop and the same thing happened yesterday. Though it had been a really long time because sex really has just become too difficult and annoying we decided to just give it a go thinking that maybe it would have some miracle working power, it didn't. So needless to say I was having contractions irregularly pretty much all afternoon and night and they just stopped just like they would last time.
I'm really starting to get down. I know that a C-section is a possibility but dammit if it's because the dr's have been wrong all this time and because this baby is actually breech I'm going to be pissed. I've repeatedly asked for a confirming ultrasound and it keeps getting put off. I really tried to have trust that these dr's and this pregnancy is different but when it's beginning to mirror the last one I'm losing hope and trust. I think with R losing his job and just the drama of the last week that giving me a freaking ultrasound is not too much to ask. I've been strong, positive, and optimistic and it's just starting to get damn hard to keep that perspective when I'm thinking back to 3.5 years ago at this same time. I remember the day I found out he was breech and I was devastated. I went home and layed on the ironing board upside down for so long and he was trying to flip but there just wasn't any damn room in there for him. I had been preparing so long taking and spending money on Bradley classes so that I could avoid the C-section epidemic that has plagued our society, yet because of stupid dr's I had to have one. Having to have another one for the same reason would just send me over the edge. Please pray for me that this baby is really head down and that I'm not going to find out at the last minute that he's breech and have to have a C-section!!!!!
Well at least on the little counter it says 9 days, but after all, a due date is just an estimate. I was lying in bed this morning getting completely worked up that this baby is breech because it's like deja vu compared to Little man's. Everything has pretty much been identical! All the dr's told me little man was head down, ready, and he wasn't. I was dialated 3cm and then 4, at exactly the same points that I have been this pregnancy. This might be TMI so don't keep reading if you don't care to hear. Hubby and I were having sex to try to get labor started with Little man and I would get contractions and then they would stop and the same thing happened yesterday. Though it had been a really long time because sex really has just become too difficult and annoying we decided to just give it a go thinking that maybe it would have some miracle working power, it didn't. So needless to say I was having contractions irregularly pretty much all afternoon and night and they just stopped just like they would last time.
I'm really starting to get down. I know that a C-section is a possibility but dammit if it's because the dr's have been wrong all this time and because this baby is actually breech I'm going to be pissed. I've repeatedly asked for a confirming ultrasound and it keeps getting put off. I really tried to have trust that these dr's and this pregnancy is different but when it's beginning to mirror the last one I'm losing hope and trust. I think with R losing his job and just the drama of the last week that giving me a freaking ultrasound is not too much to ask. I've been strong, positive, and optimistic and it's just starting to get damn hard to keep that perspective when I'm thinking back to 3.5 years ago at this same time. I remember the day I found out he was breech and I was devastated. I went home and layed on the ironing board upside down for so long and he was trying to flip but there just wasn't any damn room in there for him. I had been preparing so long taking and spending money on Bradley classes so that I could avoid the C-section epidemic that has plagued our society, yet because of stupid dr's I had to have one. Having to have another one for the same reason would just send me over the edge. Please pray for me that this baby is really head down and that I'm not going to find out at the last minute that he's breech and have to have a C-section!!!!!
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Missing Sleep
So last night was rough, only about 4.5 hours of sleep. It's not for lack of being tired but rather the feeling that I have to pee every 5 minutes, my legs/hips bothering me/and not being able to get comfortable. I have to say that with this pregnancy it's taken a long time for me to have sleeping problems. Up until probably last week I was sleeping like a baby without too many issues. I guess I've finally crossed that threshold into being in the "uncomfortable" stage, especially during the night. I tried the couch, both laying down and propped up, the bed in all sorts of positions and finally wished that I could fall asleep standing up because that was most comfortable. I'm just going to catch naps throughout the day to try to get more rest or maybe if I keep myself up then my body will be so exhausted that I'll crash tonight. I haven't decided which would be the best.
We got the crib recall voucher yesterday. We have to use it at a Babi.es R U.s store and it's for $219.99. I found several cribs I really like but then when I called the store they told me that they were only available online. I decided to stop looking online and just wait until today when R and I could make the trip to the store. There was no sense in wasting my time looking at options that weren't actually options. The problem I'm running into is that I'm locked into white because that's the color of the changing table and glider and also the price. I don't mind kicking $30-$40 into the crib but I really don't want to spend too much because then in the end we wouldn't have made any money off this deal because we paid $165 for it when we bought it on Craig.slist. It would be nice to come out ahead in the deal, but we'll see.
I also have two coupons for valves for the new BPA free bottles that I bought that I have to redeem. The manufacturer was running low on valves since the BPA announcement so the packs I bought came with a sort of rain check. They provided one valve but due to low quantities didn't have the ability to include the other 2. So they included a coupon that was good for a two pack of valves once their production increased. I thought it was a pretty great idea. I am also debating about purchasing a couple of other items such as the monitor and baby book. It would be nice to get started right away on the baby book and also have the monitor so I can actually take Little man outside without having to come in every two seconds to check on the baby. That's the only downfall to not have a baby shower before the baby is born. I'm thinking though that I can actually put where I'm registered in the "meet and greet"invitation now that R has lost his job because we really can't afford some of the things we really need.
I miss Little man but I'm so glad he's at my parents house getting lots of attention because running on such low sleep I don't think I would have been much a mom the past few days. My brother has been awesome with him and has totally proved that he can keep his routine and do everything. I was a little worried because he doesn't have much experience with kids. He's 23 and up until now has been at college or away at his summer job. The other night my mom had a meeting so he watched Little man. She told him that she'd bathe and get him ready for bed when she got home from the meeting. By the time she got home my bro had cleaned up the whole kitchen, given Little man a bath, put on his pjs and had him in bed reading him stories. I was so impressed. My inlaws can't/don't even do that much when they are watching him. I am having major issues with them right now and that's been ticking me off. I may or may not write about that at a later time.
So last night was rough, only about 4.5 hours of sleep. It's not for lack of being tired but rather the feeling that I have to pee every 5 minutes, my legs/hips bothering me/and not being able to get comfortable. I have to say that with this pregnancy it's taken a long time for me to have sleeping problems. Up until probably last week I was sleeping like a baby without too many issues. I guess I've finally crossed that threshold into being in the "uncomfortable" stage, especially during the night. I tried the couch, both laying down and propped up, the bed in all sorts of positions and finally wished that I could fall asleep standing up because that was most comfortable. I'm just going to catch naps throughout the day to try to get more rest or maybe if I keep myself up then my body will be so exhausted that I'll crash tonight. I haven't decided which would be the best.
We got the crib recall voucher yesterday. We have to use it at a Babi.es R U.s store and it's for $219.99. I found several cribs I really like but then when I called the store they told me that they were only available online. I decided to stop looking online and just wait until today when R and I could make the trip to the store. There was no sense in wasting my time looking at options that weren't actually options. The problem I'm running into is that I'm locked into white because that's the color of the changing table and glider and also the price. I don't mind kicking $30-$40 into the crib but I really don't want to spend too much because then in the end we wouldn't have made any money off this deal because we paid $165 for it when we bought it on Craig.slist. It would be nice to come out ahead in the deal, but we'll see.
I also have two coupons for valves for the new BPA free bottles that I bought that I have to redeem. The manufacturer was running low on valves since the BPA announcement so the packs I bought came with a sort of rain check. They provided one valve but due to low quantities didn't have the ability to include the other 2. So they included a coupon that was good for a two pack of valves once their production increased. I thought it was a pretty great idea. I am also debating about purchasing a couple of other items such as the monitor and baby book. It would be nice to get started right away on the baby book and also have the monitor so I can actually take Little man outside without having to come in every two seconds to check on the baby. That's the only downfall to not have a baby shower before the baby is born. I'm thinking though that I can actually put where I'm registered in the "meet and greet"invitation now that R has lost his job because we really can't afford some of the things we really need.
I miss Little man but I'm so glad he's at my parents house getting lots of attention because running on such low sleep I don't think I would have been much a mom the past few days. My brother has been awesome with him and has totally proved that he can keep his routine and do everything. I was a little worried because he doesn't have much experience with kids. He's 23 and up until now has been at college or away at his summer job. The other night my mom had a meeting so he watched Little man. She told him that she'd bathe and get him ready for bed when she got home from the meeting. By the time she got home my bro had cleaned up the whole kitchen, given Little man a bath, put on his pjs and had him in bed reading him stories. I was so impressed. My inlaws can't/don't even do that much when they are watching him. I am having major issues with them right now and that's been ticking me off. I may or may not write about that at a later time.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Friday
I can't believe that it's already Friday! I've certainly got a lot done this week and have more tasks on my "to do" list today. I haven't been feeling any different. The ending of this pregnancy feels like when you are single and desperately looking for a boyfriend because you've been single way too long and everyone around you has a significant other. So not everyone around me has a new baby but the connection feels like I felt my senior year of college.
I know I sound desperate but let me fill you in on the ending of my college years. I had a long distance boyfriend when I went away to college, J and he was from a small town near mine. We met after graduation despite me wanting to "go to college single." I was an 18 year old girl that was flattered that a cute boy showed interest and it gave me something to do the summer before I went away to school. I started the relationship with full intention to break it off before I left but yeah right, who can do that. So we dated until mid way through my sophomore year when things were just not going well and we broke up, later to begin dating again the summer after my sophomore year. I'm guessing we were both lonely and dating again seemed like a good idea at the time, but surprise, surprise it wasn't a good idea and it didn't last. So a few months into my junior year we broke up for good.
I was single for the rest of my junior year and all of my senior year well into the fall of my teaching internship, so total about 2 years. Now that's a long time when you are a needy girl seeking a guy for support. You start asking yourself "what's wrong with me?" etc.... Well looking back I had serious guy issues from the fact that my father sucked as a dad, I was drinking WAY too much (which I'm sure was attractive to men, yeah right), and I was thinking and obsessing about it ALL THE TIME. My friends told me over and over "It will happen when you least expect it" and to calm down and stop seeking it out. I dated a few guys here and there but nothing that developed in a boyfriend. I spent so much time obsessing and trying to "get a guy" that I feel like I missed out on a lot, but hey hindsight is 20/20.
That's the way this pregnancy feels. I'm obsessing about it so much and I know that I just need to chill out and enjoy the time and be patient. Which can I just say I was totally planning on doing prior to R losing his job. I actually love being pregnant and prior to that incident I was totally cool with being patient and going over due. I didn't have anything to lose and I deeply want this baby to come on it's own anyway. Now I feel like there's some timeline, which is my own fault because I'm putting myself on an imaginary timeline. I really want my 6 week check up to be covered by insurance so I keep telling myself that if I have this baby soon then there won't be an issue and it will be covered. When in all actuality who cares. The birth will be covered and we'll just cross the 6 week check up bridge when we come to it and work something out. R actually has a meeting with his boss in a few hours and that's when they finalize the details. Pray for insurance through October!!!!!!! In the mean time I'm going to chill out and focus on my tasks and let this baby decide when he's going to arrive.
Oh and back to the boyfriend thing, my friends were right. It did happen when I least expected it to, a tailgate Saturday in October of 2002 in a bar. It was raining and miserable outside that day but as die hard football/tailgating fans my friends and I were out there at the break of dawn to start drinking and hanging out having a good time. By mid morning we were cold and soaked so I went back to my apartment and met my friend D who came into town. We decided to go to a bar downtown, mind you I looked like hell because I was in a baggy sweatshirt and had been soaked so my hair was really not looking great. The bar was crazy but my friends were there so we stood by them and had a few drinks. Shortly a bar stool right next to them opened up so D went to take it just as my now husband R went to take the same stool. R was with his friend and the four of us started a conversation. My friends ended up leaving and D and I went with R and his friend to another bar and then out for pizza. They walked us back to my apartment and he asked for my phone number. He called the next day and the rest is history........
I can't believe that it's already Friday! I've certainly got a lot done this week and have more tasks on my "to do" list today. I haven't been feeling any different. The ending of this pregnancy feels like when you are single and desperately looking for a boyfriend because you've been single way too long and everyone around you has a significant other. So not everyone around me has a new baby but the connection feels like I felt my senior year of college.
I know I sound desperate but let me fill you in on the ending of my college years. I had a long distance boyfriend when I went away to college, J and he was from a small town near mine. We met after graduation despite me wanting to "go to college single." I was an 18 year old girl that was flattered that a cute boy showed interest and it gave me something to do the summer before I went away to school. I started the relationship with full intention to break it off before I left but yeah right, who can do that. So we dated until mid way through my sophomore year when things were just not going well and we broke up, later to begin dating again the summer after my sophomore year. I'm guessing we were both lonely and dating again seemed like a good idea at the time, but surprise, surprise it wasn't a good idea and it didn't last. So a few months into my junior year we broke up for good.
I was single for the rest of my junior year and all of my senior year well into the fall of my teaching internship, so total about 2 years. Now that's a long time when you are a needy girl seeking a guy for support. You start asking yourself "what's wrong with me?" etc.... Well looking back I had serious guy issues from the fact that my father sucked as a dad, I was drinking WAY too much (which I'm sure was attractive to men, yeah right), and I was thinking and obsessing about it ALL THE TIME. My friends told me over and over "It will happen when you least expect it" and to calm down and stop seeking it out. I dated a few guys here and there but nothing that developed in a boyfriend. I spent so much time obsessing and trying to "get a guy" that I feel like I missed out on a lot, but hey hindsight is 20/20.
That's the way this pregnancy feels. I'm obsessing about it so much and I know that I just need to chill out and enjoy the time and be patient. Which can I just say I was totally planning on doing prior to R losing his job. I actually love being pregnant and prior to that incident I was totally cool with being patient and going over due. I didn't have anything to lose and I deeply want this baby to come on it's own anyway. Now I feel like there's some timeline, which is my own fault because I'm putting myself on an imaginary timeline. I really want my 6 week check up to be covered by insurance so I keep telling myself that if I have this baby soon then there won't be an issue and it will be covered. When in all actuality who cares. The birth will be covered and we'll just cross the 6 week check up bridge when we come to it and work something out. R actually has a meeting with his boss in a few hours and that's when they finalize the details. Pray for insurance through October!!!!!!! In the mean time I'm going to chill out and focus on my tasks and let this baby decide when he's going to arrive.
Oh and back to the boyfriend thing, my friends were right. It did happen when I least expected it to, a tailgate Saturday in October of 2002 in a bar. It was raining and miserable outside that day but as die hard football/tailgating fans my friends and I were out there at the break of dawn to start drinking and hanging out having a good time. By mid morning we were cold and soaked so I went back to my apartment and met my friend D who came into town. We decided to go to a bar downtown, mind you I looked like hell because I was in a baggy sweatshirt and had been soaked so my hair was really not looking great. The bar was crazy but my friends were there so we stood by them and had a few drinks. Shortly a bar stool right next to them opened up so D went to take it just as my now husband R went to take the same stool. R was with his friend and the four of us started a conversation. My friends ended up leaving and D and I went with R and his friend to another bar and then out for pizza. They walked us back to my apartment and he asked for my phone number. He called the next day and the rest is history........
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Still Here
I'm very curious to if I'm going to make it until my next appointment next Monday???? I've been having contractions in spurts here and there but nothing that intensifies or is timable. I just keep hoping that my water will break or that the contractions will just get stronger so that I'll know this baby is ready to come on his own. If I go to the dr on Monday he already told me that he would induce me by breaking my water at 39 weeks, which is next Tuesday. Normally, I would say "no thanks, we'll wait it out" but given our circumstance I don't think I would hold out. I don't think my 6 week check up is going to end up falling in September but it would be really nice if this baby ended up coming soon so there is a possibility that I could get the appointment in before insurance runs out.
I finally got medicine for my UT.I yesterday around 12pm so I took it right away. It's twice per day so I took it at 11pm last night and will keep adjusting it by an hour until I get on an 9am and 9pm schedule because I don't really feel like staying up until 11pm or 12am to take a pill. I'm feeling better though so that's really nice! I really hate drama at the end of pregnancies, it happened with Little man too. I have perfect, no drama pregnancies and then at the end all hell breaks loose. I'm praying for a smooth and uneventful next week or so (however long it is). Tomorrow afternoon I'm supposed to call the dr. to see what the results were from the urine culture so they can be sure the meds I'm on will take care of the problem or if there happens to be nothing I can discontinue taking them.
Had a rough night last night. I learned that R maybe isn't able to talk extensively about the job he's leaving at this point. We talked a great deal about how messed up his work place is on our walk and were having really great conversation. I really think after our talk that he's lucky he's leaving, but then afterwards he was weird. He was over reactive about weird things and just seemed "on edge" for the rest of the night. I guess one thing I'm scared about is the role I'm supposed to play in all of this. I've definitely gotten over being sad and crying. I know that I have to stay strong and supportive but I don't know how to act. We had another conversation about jobs over IM this morning and I was taking the neutral type stance where I would offer pros and cons and food for though about what he was saying, not being judgemental in any way, but then he said I was being judgemental. I guess I'm going to try to just take to listening and nodding my head. I'm not sure what role he expects me to play throughout this whole process. I've never been in this situation before so I have no idea what to do or what he needs. Have any of you ever been in this type of situation before? What did you do, say, how did you act, what did your significant other find especially helpful? I want to keep this experience a positive one for R and myself.
I have another long "to do" list today so I'd better get some breakfast and start tackling my tasks. The main one that I want to finish is hospital packing! Have a great day!
I'm very curious to if I'm going to make it until my next appointment next Monday???? I've been having contractions in spurts here and there but nothing that intensifies or is timable. I just keep hoping that my water will break or that the contractions will just get stronger so that I'll know this baby is ready to come on his own. If I go to the dr on Monday he already told me that he would induce me by breaking my water at 39 weeks, which is next Tuesday. Normally, I would say "no thanks, we'll wait it out" but given our circumstance I don't think I would hold out. I don't think my 6 week check up is going to end up falling in September but it would be really nice if this baby ended up coming soon so there is a possibility that I could get the appointment in before insurance runs out.
I finally got medicine for my UT.I yesterday around 12pm so I took it right away. It's twice per day so I took it at 11pm last night and will keep adjusting it by an hour until I get on an 9am and 9pm schedule because I don't really feel like staying up until 11pm or 12am to take a pill. I'm feeling better though so that's really nice! I really hate drama at the end of pregnancies, it happened with Little man too. I have perfect, no drama pregnancies and then at the end all hell breaks loose. I'm praying for a smooth and uneventful next week or so (however long it is). Tomorrow afternoon I'm supposed to call the dr. to see what the results were from the urine culture so they can be sure the meds I'm on will take care of the problem or if there happens to be nothing I can discontinue taking them.
Had a rough night last night. I learned that R maybe isn't able to talk extensively about the job he's leaving at this point. We talked a great deal about how messed up his work place is on our walk and were having really great conversation. I really think after our talk that he's lucky he's leaving, but then afterwards he was weird. He was over reactive about weird things and just seemed "on edge" for the rest of the night. I guess one thing I'm scared about is the role I'm supposed to play in all of this. I've definitely gotten over being sad and crying. I know that I have to stay strong and supportive but I don't know how to act. We had another conversation about jobs over IM this morning and I was taking the neutral type stance where I would offer pros and cons and food for though about what he was saying, not being judgemental in any way, but then he said I was being judgemental. I guess I'm going to try to just take to listening and nodding my head. I'm not sure what role he expects me to play throughout this whole process. I've never been in this situation before so I have no idea what to do or what he needs. Have any of you ever been in this type of situation before? What did you do, say, how did you act, what did your significant other find especially helpful? I want to keep this experience a positive one for R and myself.
I have another long "to do" list today so I'd better get some breakfast and start tackling my tasks. The main one that I want to finish is hospital packing! Have a great day!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
My Mind is Full
Thanks for all the prayers, I really appreciate them! I'm wavering between looking at the bright side and feeling overwhelmed with emotion. I'm trying to stay strong because I know that worrying, feeling sad, getting depressed will not make the situation any better and we do need to stay positive in order to get through this. I still have a hard time talking to anyone about it without starting to cry but I think that's mainly because of people's reaction when they hear the news.
You are probably all curious about how this happened. Basically R is the type of person that wants to move mountains when he gets a new job. The university that he works at is small and has so much potential for tons of growth and new ideas. He doesn't like wasting time and wanted to implement many of his great ideas. His boss was behind him but there were other more powerful departments that were struggling with his work mentality. It's the other department with more power that is pretty much making his boss give him the option to resign or be fired. The woman over in the other department is sleeping with her boss and the boss is best friend's with the president of the university so they have tons of power. They get what they want and they do things on their terms the way they want to do it. They were crushing ideas of R's without any good reason and his boss was sticking up for him but she also wasn't the best boss and she doesn't have any power against those two other people. It was a crappy situation and R wasn't happy.
I know this is for the best but the problem is that we have very little savings because his job didn't pay much to begin with and we really NEED health care. I have my dr. appt on Monday so if I haven't gone into labor by then I'm going to beg/plead/cry/do whatever I can so that they will induce me and hopefully we'll still have a 2 week buffer before our health insurance runs out just in case there are any problems after the birth or with my recovery. I know that things happen for a reason and that there is something better in store for our future but it's very hard to not get overwhelmed and sad. I know that we have an exciting experience with the baby being born to look forward to and I'm going to try to go minute by minute, day by day.
Thanks for the support and comments! Hopefully I'll be able to post soon that I'm in labor and soon announce our new little man to everyone!
Thanks for all the prayers, I really appreciate them! I'm wavering between looking at the bright side and feeling overwhelmed with emotion. I'm trying to stay strong because I know that worrying, feeling sad, getting depressed will not make the situation any better and we do need to stay positive in order to get through this. I still have a hard time talking to anyone about it without starting to cry but I think that's mainly because of people's reaction when they hear the news.
You are probably all curious about how this happened. Basically R is the type of person that wants to move mountains when he gets a new job. The university that he works at is small and has so much potential for tons of growth and new ideas. He doesn't like wasting time and wanted to implement many of his great ideas. His boss was behind him but there were other more powerful departments that were struggling with his work mentality. It's the other department with more power that is pretty much making his boss give him the option to resign or be fired. The woman over in the other department is sleeping with her boss and the boss is best friend's with the president of the university so they have tons of power. They get what they want and they do things on their terms the way they want to do it. They were crushing ideas of R's without any good reason and his boss was sticking up for him but she also wasn't the best boss and she doesn't have any power against those two other people. It was a crappy situation and R wasn't happy.
I know this is for the best but the problem is that we have very little savings because his job didn't pay much to begin with and we really NEED health care. I have my dr. appt on Monday so if I haven't gone into labor by then I'm going to beg/plead/cry/do whatever I can so that they will induce me and hopefully we'll still have a 2 week buffer before our health insurance runs out just in case there are any problems after the birth or with my recovery. I know that things happen for a reason and that there is something better in store for our future but it's very hard to not get overwhelmed and sad. I know that we have an exciting experience with the baby being born to look forward to and I'm going to try to go minute by minute, day by day.
Thanks for the support and comments! Hopefully I'll be able to post soon that I'm in labor and soon announce our new little man to everyone!
Friday, August 15, 2008
A Few Contractions
I really need to find something to take my mind off the fact that I'm pregnant. Every little movement, twitch, pain, ache, has me wondering "is today the day?" I had a few contractions this morning when I was laying in bed but they didn't amount to anything and weren't frequent. I woke up at 4am to go to the bathroom and then my mind kept me up for about an hour, so annoying. My mom and brother are leaving N. Carol.ina today so they can pretty much be home whenever. They are planning to stop at my aunt's house in Oh.io and then my grandparents in lower MI but if I end up going into labor those plans can easily be modified. Also, now that it's almost the weekend my dad won't have to worry about taking off from work if we need him to come watch Alex.
When I was putting Little man to bed last night he asked me what we were going to do today and I replied, "we'll do lots of fun activities, what do you want to do?" His reply was, "I want to go on a vacation." LOL Don't we all, don't we all!!!!! He cracks me up multiplie times per day and I'm so excited to see how he is going to be with Baby boy. He's been carrying around and caring for his Cabba.ge Pat.ch doll, Auggie (August) for weeks. We've practiced strapping him into the car seat, putting him to sleep in the bassinet, putting the little hats on his head, feeding him his bottle, etc.... He has also been sleeping with him every night. I definitely thinks he's ready for the baby to arrive. I know he's going to be such a big help! I took him to Tar.get yesterday to pick out a toy for the baby so he could bring him a present in the hospital when he comes to visit. I still have to buy something for the baby to give to Little man though, hopefully I am still pregnant tomorrow so I can go and do that. Little man is always with me so it's hard to get something without him seeing.
Well I'll keep everyone updated as to how things are going!
I really need to find something to take my mind off the fact that I'm pregnant. Every little movement, twitch, pain, ache, has me wondering "is today the day?" I had a few contractions this morning when I was laying in bed but they didn't amount to anything and weren't frequent. I woke up at 4am to go to the bathroom and then my mind kept me up for about an hour, so annoying. My mom and brother are leaving N. Carol.ina today so they can pretty much be home whenever. They are planning to stop at my aunt's house in Oh.io and then my grandparents in lower MI but if I end up going into labor those plans can easily be modified. Also, now that it's almost the weekend my dad won't have to worry about taking off from work if we need him to come watch Alex.
When I was putting Little man to bed last night he asked me what we were going to do today and I replied, "we'll do lots of fun activities, what do you want to do?" His reply was, "I want to go on a vacation." LOL Don't we all, don't we all!!!!! He cracks me up multiplie times per day and I'm so excited to see how he is going to be with Baby boy. He's been carrying around and caring for his Cabba.ge Pat.ch doll, Auggie (August) for weeks. We've practiced strapping him into the car seat, putting him to sleep in the bassinet, putting the little hats on his head, feeding him his bottle, etc.... He has also been sleeping with him every night. I definitely thinks he's ready for the baby to arrive. I know he's going to be such a big help! I took him to Tar.get yesterday to pick out a toy for the baby so he could bring him a present in the hospital when he comes to visit. I still have to buy something for the baby to give to Little man though, hopefully I am still pregnant tomorrow so I can go and do that. Little man is always with me so it's hard to get something without him seeing.
Well I'll keep everyone updated as to how things are going!
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Quite Productive
So I've been definitely getting more done lately in nervousness that the dr. just may be right that I'll go into labor before next Monday. So far I've gotten almost all the laundry done, the house isn't in shambles, the plants and flowers are still alive (yeah, go me), the bathroom is clean, we've had good dinners this week (thanks to a little help from my husband!), I returned late library books, changes the baby's primary care physician, and booked a dr appt for Little man this morning so he can get his paperwork filled out to go to preschool. I still have to finish packing for the hospital, finalize the birth plan and get the nursery more organized. Maybe I am nesting?????
On to other things.............
So I've been definitely getting more done lately in nervousness that the dr. just may be right that I'll go into labor before next Monday. So far I've gotten almost all the laundry done, the house isn't in shambles, the plants and flowers are still alive (yeah, go me), the bathroom is clean, we've had good dinners this week (thanks to a little help from my husband!), I returned late library books, changes the baby's primary care physician, and booked a dr appt for Little man this morning so he can get his paperwork filled out to go to preschool. I still have to finish packing for the hospital, finalize the birth plan and get the nursery more organized. Maybe I am nesting?????
On to other things.............
- I have to call today to find out about my Group B strep test. They totally forgot to tell me the results at my last appt.
- We go to the dr. at 9:30am. Little man needs one vaccination so I've been preparing him that he'll be getting a shot. So far he seems okay about it but we'll see when we actually get in there. This was a fiasco because Little man's primary care physician retired and I never got notice. I've been dealing with changing to a new one and making sure all the paperwork is where it's supposed to be all week.
- Heading to Tar.get for some last minute things for the baby and then Little man's preschool supplies and backpack.
- Found the exact sit and stand stroller I want for the boys on Craigs.list for $40 and it's only one year old and retails for over $150 so I'm really hoping it's still available, impatiently waiting :)
- I have my friend's resume to look over and critique because she's moving to Mary.land from Flor.ida and is looking for new teaching jobs. I did her reference letter yesterday.
- I'm starting to have very high anxiety that this baby isn't head down. The end of this pregnancy is progressing just like Little mans and I'm worried. If I make it until Monday I'm going to beg, plead, cry, do whatever I have to to try to get an ultrasound to see if this baby is in fact head down. I was dialated to 3 with Little man and pretty much in the same situation but he wasn't head down, yet they kept telling me he was. The only saving grace that I have is that this dr told me that the heart beat was strongest down low which tends to signify that he is head down, the other dr with Little man never mentioned anything about the heartbeat. Also, he told me that I was pretty much thinned out and I'm not sure if I was or not with Little man, can't recall.
- This is the hardest stage of pregnancy. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm probably at the point where I just want him out and that I'm probably very uncomfortable. Actually I'm doing great and I feel great. If anything I want to meet him and that's the reason I'd like to deliver. Though, as I mentioned in my previous post I also wouldn't mind staying pregnant a little longer so I can wrap my mind around having two kids and how I'm going to cope and manage. The main reason why I have a hard time around the last three weeks is just because everything is so up in the air. I don't know how/when I'm going to go into labor, if he's actually head down, if I'll be able to have a successful VBA.C, if I'll end up having to have a C-sec.tion again, if I'll have to be induced, and the list goes on and on........ I'm a planner/organizer and this is just very up in the air, it creates anxiety for me.
Okay I have to go shower and get ready before Little man wakes up so we can get ready to head to the dr. this morning.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
3 weeks and 3:30am
Okay so I cannot believe that in somewhere around 3 weeks, maybe sooner, we'll have our new little baby boy here in our arms. I'm starting to freak out a little bit!!!! I'm feeling like I just want to keep him in my belly forever because I'm so scared of the thought of having two kids. I know this is probably normal but I would love some advice as to how I might deal with this fear. I'm not worried about loving another child, just adapting to life with two. The biggest worry is that Little man is so used to being the center of attention and that having this new baby will turn his perfect life upside down. I am fully aware and plan to include him in helping and taking on the new Big Brother role, but I'm worried about having enough time and energy for him. I suppose that it will appear and that I'm making too big of a deal about it, but since he's older I feel like it's going to be harder. He's had us to himself longer and is more used to the universe revolving around him.
So on to the 3:30am.....the time I woke up this morning. It's not that I couldn't sleep, it's that my husband couldn't. He was worrying about work and laying there awake so he decided to get up. That caused me to lay there worrying about him. I tried desperately to fall back asleep but it didn't work. I had to drive my mom to the airport at 5:30am so I was already going to be up early, but hadn't planned on being up THAT early. I got home about 6:10am from taking my mom and ended up laying back down in bed. I didn't feel like I slept a wink but I did wake up at 7:15am to the sound of Little man watching TV so I must have dozed off a little bit. Getting up was rough but I ended up taking a 2 hour nap when Little man was napping.
I'm dead tired again so I'm off to bed. Surprisingly the laundry is almost done!!! I feel like there is so much more to do though before the baby arrives.
Okay so I cannot believe that in somewhere around 3 weeks, maybe sooner, we'll have our new little baby boy here in our arms. I'm starting to freak out a little bit!!!! I'm feeling like I just want to keep him in my belly forever because I'm so scared of the thought of having two kids. I know this is probably normal but I would love some advice as to how I might deal with this fear. I'm not worried about loving another child, just adapting to life with two. The biggest worry is that Little man is so used to being the center of attention and that having this new baby will turn his perfect life upside down. I am fully aware and plan to include him in helping and taking on the new Big Brother role, but I'm worried about having enough time and energy for him. I suppose that it will appear and that I'm making too big of a deal about it, but since he's older I feel like it's going to be harder. He's had us to himself longer and is more used to the universe revolving around him.
So on to the 3:30am.....the time I woke up this morning. It's not that I couldn't sleep, it's that my husband couldn't. He was worrying about work and laying there awake so he decided to get up. That caused me to lay there worrying about him. I tried desperately to fall back asleep but it didn't work. I had to drive my mom to the airport at 5:30am so I was already going to be up early, but hadn't planned on being up THAT early. I got home about 6:10am from taking my mom and ended up laying back down in bed. I didn't feel like I slept a wink but I did wake up at 7:15am to the sound of Little man watching TV so I must have dozed off a little bit. Getting up was rough but I ended up taking a 2 hour nap when Little man was napping.
I'm dead tired again so I'm off to bed. Surprisingly the laundry is almost done!!! I feel like there is so much more to do though before the baby arrives.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
No Energy & Appt Update
I've been having a hard time lately getting anything done. I feel like I am just drained all the time and if I do one task I need to sit down and rest. This doesn't work well when I'm trying to prepare for a new baby and take care of an active three year old. We desperately need groceries and I just don't feel like dragging myself to Supe.r Wal.mart. I have still been going out walking to get exercise but it seems to just tire me out rather than energize me. I've literally put off laundry for a week and now have this insane pile to get done today and tomorrow.
I had my 37 week appt today and since I've been having contractions here and there and a lot of pressure I had the dr check me. I am 3cm dialated, mostly thinned out, and he said the head was "right there." He said he would surprised if I make it until next Monday (my next appt.) They said the same thing with Little man though so I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket and putting a whole lot of stock in his prediction. The thing that annoys me is that my mom leaves tomorrow morning for N. Caro.lina to visit my brother and then drive home with him because his summer job is over. I really hope I don't have the baby when she's gone because that will be slightly inconvenient. She is our babysitter for Little man and I really don't want to have to make tons of other arrangements.
So we'll see what happens. I will hopefully be able to post daily updates!
I've been having a hard time lately getting anything done. I feel like I am just drained all the time and if I do one task I need to sit down and rest. This doesn't work well when I'm trying to prepare for a new baby and take care of an active three year old. We desperately need groceries and I just don't feel like dragging myself to Supe.r Wal.mart. I have still been going out walking to get exercise but it seems to just tire me out rather than energize me. I've literally put off laundry for a week and now have this insane pile to get done today and tomorrow.
I had my 37 week appt today and since I've been having contractions here and there and a lot of pressure I had the dr check me. I am 3cm dialated, mostly thinned out, and he said the head was "right there." He said he would surprised if I make it until next Monday (my next appt.) They said the same thing with Little man though so I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket and putting a whole lot of stock in his prediction. The thing that annoys me is that my mom leaves tomorrow morning for N. Caro.lina to visit my brother and then drive home with him because his summer job is over. I really hope I don't have the baby when she's gone because that will be slightly inconvenient. She is our babysitter for Little man and I really don't want to have to make tons of other arrangements.
So we'll see what happens. I will hopefully be able to post daily updates!
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