Staying

After thinking long and hard I decided that I was going to tell my principal that I wasn't interested in taking over for my coworker going on maternity leave. My plate is really full right now and I can't really add on too much more. She was understanding and I made it clear that I would love to help out but given my situation I just couldn't. She seemed cool about it and hopefully everything will work out.

I'm still not ready for Christmas. My mom was with me shopping this weekend so I couldn't buy for her. I tried to ask her what she wanted for Christmas by phrasing it "so did you give dad a list of the things that you wanted for Christmas?" and she replied, "I shouldn't have to give him a list all you have to do is pay attention throughout the year!" That was the problem with my mom growing up. She would file every little thing we said we wanted into her memory and then we'd end up with gifts that we no longer wanted because as kids you say you want 10 million different things in a given year. I'll never forget the sewing box I ended up with when I was in middle school. I'm sure on a random day when she was sewing I stupidly said I would be interested in a sewing box and she remembered. By the time I opened it I definitely didn't want a sewing box for a gift any more.

My main problem is that I forget....a lot!!! I swear I have a hard time remembering what I had for dinner on any given night. I chalk it up to being so busy and having a lot of things going on but in all reality my memory sucks. Now ask me all about my week at camp in 1992 and I can recall every single detail but I have holes for sure. So why am I bringing all this up???? I can't remember for the life of me things that my mom has mentioned wanting throughout this year. I take that back I do remember her saying she wanted a work out DVD but I'm not sure that's appropriate for a Christmas gift. I feel like that says workout, you're fat. I feel bad because I'm not really good at remembering things that she says she wants but damn I can't remember what I want let alone someone else whom I don't even live with.

This leads me back to the fact that I still have Christmas shopping to do and I'm not sure what to get her. I tried calling my brother to see what he got her but of course he didn't answer his phone. Oh well good thing I have a couple days to figure it out.