My Mind is Full
Thanks for all the prayers, I really appreciate them! I'm wavering between looking at the bright side and feeling overwhelmed with emotion. I'm trying to stay strong because I know that worrying, feeling sad, getting depressed will not make the situation any better and we do need to stay positive in order to get through this. I still have a hard time talking to anyone about it without starting to cry but I think that's mainly because of people's reaction when they hear the news.
You are probably all curious about how this happened. Basically R is the type of person that wants to move mountains when he gets a new job. The university that he works at is small and has so much potential for tons of growth and new ideas. He doesn't like wasting time and wanted to implement many of his great ideas. His boss was behind him but there were other more powerful departments that were struggling with his work mentality. It's the other department with more power that is pretty much making his boss give him the option to resign or be fired. The woman over in the other department is sleeping with her boss and the boss is best friend's with the president of the university so they have tons of power. They get what they want and they do things on their terms the way they want to do it. They were crushing ideas of R's without any good reason and his boss was sticking up for him but she also wasn't the best boss and she doesn't have any power against those two other people. It was a crappy situation and R wasn't happy.
I know this is for the best but the problem is that we have very little savings because his job didn't pay much to begin with and we really NEED health care. I have my dr. appt on Monday so if I haven't gone into labor by then I'm going to beg/plead/cry/do whatever I can so that they will induce me and hopefully we'll still have a 2 week buffer before our health insurance runs out just in case there are any problems after the birth or with my recovery. I know that things happen for a reason and that there is something better in store for our future but it's very hard to not get overwhelmed and sad. I know that we have an exciting experience with the baby being born to look forward to and I'm going to try to go minute by minute, day by day.
Thanks for the support and comments! Hopefully I'll be able to post soon that I'm in labor and soon announce our new little man to everyone!
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Sunday, July 27, 2008
Terrible Mommy of the Year Award and Efficiency Screw Up
So Friday morning started off rough and the unravelings went on to earn me "Terrible Mommy of the Year Award." Little man and I started off the morning at Pan.era Bre.ad for breakfast because I wanted to get an early start. We had to hit up Ko.hls, Sa.m's Clu.b, and Wal.mart. After eating breakfast we hit up Ko.hls to find a "picture outfit" for baby boy to have his hospital pics taken in and then also a "coming home" outfit. We used the potty before leaving Pan.era but shortly after arriving at Ko.hls Little man said he needed to poop. We headed to the bathroom and he sat for literally one second and said he didn't have to go. I know that it's hard for him to use "big" pottys so I held him and told him to try just a little longer. He wanted to get off and despite me knowing I should have "made" him stay on I let him get off and kinda got agitated that he didn't go. We head back to looking at baby clothes and toys and he was looking at something a few feet away. Literally two minutes later he tells me he pooped his pants. Now I have nothing with me, he's potty trained, hasn't had an accident in FOREVER. I got majorly flustered.
I reacted poorly because I was frustrated that he didn't go the first time we were in there. We went and picked out a pack of underwear and went and paid. I took him to the bathroom and proceeded to change him. Poop was EVERYWHERE. I actually had to stick my hand in the toilet to get all the poop off from it because I didn't want it to drop all over the floor. (Don't worry I washed my hands with tons of soap several times) I yelled though and then felt terrible. I called R crying so that he could talk to Little man and tell him it was an accident and it was okay. Then I apologized to Little man telling him that I was very sorry and that having accidents were okay, but that we need to try to use the potty all the time. I still feel terrible and hope that I didn't scare him for life!!!!
Fast forwarding to Saturday morning the phone rings at 8:30am and it's Citi.group. I don't answer because I'm ticked that they would be calling so early on a Saturday morning and don't think anything of it again. We were gone all day and returned home about 5pm, in which the phone rings shortly after we get home, Citi.group again. I answer it this time and it's a rude guy from collections telling me I didn't pay my credit card bill last month. WTF, yes I did. So I proceed to check my online banking and I did make July's payment, in fact it was early!!!!! So he keeps arguing with me and then tells me that I need to call a different number to clear up this matter. I was so ticked off.
The second person I talked to explained to me that I made the payment one day too early and it went towards June instead of July. I firmly but politely asked him to please change it because I did make the payment, albeit one day early, and he could see my good intentions. He started telling me he could not do that and that I needed to pay $123 to clear this matter up so I told him that if he couldn't help me to transfer me to his manager. He transferred me to his manager which happened to be very friendly and helpful and cleared everything up, but damn that's what I get for trying to be efficient and pay my bills early. Needless to say I will never pay my bills TOO early because they slap late charges on you and up your finance rate, lesson learned the hard way!
We leave for Maryland on Wednesday afternoon and I feel like I have 10 million things to do! I've been sick and feeling like crap so I haven't really felt up to all the cleaning and laundry that's been sitting every so patiently, waiting for me to attend to it. R was amazing and so helpful this weekend but I still have so much to do. This week was a week that I could actually get tutor hours so that cuts down on my free time to get things done because I've been strapped to my computer in the evening. Luckily, I only have two hours tonight and then I'm done for this week. My mom comes tomorrow so having her here should free up some time to clean and get packed. So pray that baby boy doesn't come while we are away and I'll update when we return next Sunday!
So Friday morning started off rough and the unravelings went on to earn me "Terrible Mommy of the Year Award." Little man and I started off the morning at Pan.era Bre.ad for breakfast because I wanted to get an early start. We had to hit up Ko.hls, Sa.m's Clu.b, and Wal.mart. After eating breakfast we hit up Ko.hls to find a "picture outfit" for baby boy to have his hospital pics taken in and then also a "coming home" outfit. We used the potty before leaving Pan.era but shortly after arriving at Ko.hls Little man said he needed to poop. We headed to the bathroom and he sat for literally one second and said he didn't have to go. I know that it's hard for him to use "big" pottys so I held him and told him to try just a little longer. He wanted to get off and despite me knowing I should have "made" him stay on I let him get off and kinda got agitated that he didn't go. We head back to looking at baby clothes and toys and he was looking at something a few feet away. Literally two minutes later he tells me he pooped his pants. Now I have nothing with me, he's potty trained, hasn't had an accident in FOREVER. I got majorly flustered.
I reacted poorly because I was frustrated that he didn't go the first time we were in there. We went and picked out a pack of underwear and went and paid. I took him to the bathroom and proceeded to change him. Poop was EVERYWHERE. I actually had to stick my hand in the toilet to get all the poop off from it because I didn't want it to drop all over the floor. (Don't worry I washed my hands with tons of soap several times) I yelled though and then felt terrible. I called R crying so that he could talk to Little man and tell him it was an accident and it was okay. Then I apologized to Little man telling him that I was very sorry and that having accidents were okay, but that we need to try to use the potty all the time. I still feel terrible and hope that I didn't scare him for life!!!!
Fast forwarding to Saturday morning the phone rings at 8:30am and it's Citi.group. I don't answer because I'm ticked that they would be calling so early on a Saturday morning and don't think anything of it again. We were gone all day and returned home about 5pm, in which the phone rings shortly after we get home, Citi.group again. I answer it this time and it's a rude guy from collections telling me I didn't pay my credit card bill last month. WTF, yes I did. So I proceed to check my online banking and I did make July's payment, in fact it was early!!!!! So he keeps arguing with me and then tells me that I need to call a different number to clear up this matter. I was so ticked off.
The second person I talked to explained to me that I made the payment one day too early and it went towards June instead of July. I firmly but politely asked him to please change it because I did make the payment, albeit one day early, and he could see my good intentions. He started telling me he could not do that and that I needed to pay $123 to clear this matter up so I told him that if he couldn't help me to transfer me to his manager. He transferred me to his manager which happened to be very friendly and helpful and cleared everything up, but damn that's what I get for trying to be efficient and pay my bills early. Needless to say I will never pay my bills TOO early because they slap late charges on you and up your finance rate, lesson learned the hard way!
We leave for Maryland on Wednesday afternoon and I feel like I have 10 million things to do! I've been sick and feeling like crap so I haven't really felt up to all the cleaning and laundry that's been sitting every so patiently, waiting for me to attend to it. R was amazing and so helpful this weekend but I still have so much to do. This week was a week that I could actually get tutor hours so that cuts down on my free time to get things done because I've been strapped to my computer in the evening. Luckily, I only have two hours tonight and then I'm done for this week. My mom comes tomorrow so having her here should free up some time to clean and get packed. So pray that baby boy doesn't come while we are away and I'll update when we return next Sunday!
Friday, July 18, 2008
Will I Ever See My Husband?
The darn airlines are keeping my husband from getting home at a reasonable hour tonight and I'm very cranky about having to pick him up in the middle of the night when I have a three year old to bring with me. R was in Pitts.burgh for a conference all week and I drove him to his co worker's house on Tuesday morning so I could have the car all week. I have a car but his is more reliable and since we were driving to my parent's house I decided that the more reliable car would be the best bet. He was supposed to arrive back home at 6:30, which meant that I would be picking him up around 7:15-7:30pm. They had to change plans in Chica.go so because their flight was delayed in Pitts.burgh they were going to miss their plane in Chica.go. Last I heard they got on a standby flight in Pitts.burgh and should be arriving in Chica.go soon but then from there they were hoping to get on another standby flight to avoid a 12am arrival. I'm waiting to hear from him so that I know what time I'm going to have to drag my butt to the car and drive 40+ minutes to pick him up (at least the traffic should be light!). There is no way that I'm going to get out of taking Little man with me because I have no one who can stay with him nor would I ask anyone to get their butt out of bed that late and come over here. That's the serious downfall of living far away from family. Though we are WAY closer than we were it's still sometimes too far away.
The darn airlines are keeping my husband from getting home at a reasonable hour tonight and I'm very cranky about having to pick him up in the middle of the night when I have a three year old to bring with me. R was in Pitts.burgh for a conference all week and I drove him to his co worker's house on Tuesday morning so I could have the car all week. I have a car but his is more reliable and since we were driving to my parent's house I decided that the more reliable car would be the best bet. He was supposed to arrive back home at 6:30, which meant that I would be picking him up around 7:15-7:30pm. They had to change plans in Chica.go so because their flight was delayed in Pitts.burgh they were going to miss their plane in Chica.go. Last I heard they got on a standby flight in Pitts.burgh and should be arriving in Chica.go soon but then from there they were hoping to get on another standby flight to avoid a 12am arrival. I'm waiting to hear from him so that I know what time I'm going to have to drag my butt to the car and drive 40+ minutes to pick him up (at least the traffic should be light!). There is no way that I'm going to get out of taking Little man with me because I have no one who can stay with him nor would I ask anyone to get their butt out of bed that late and come over here. That's the serious downfall of living far away from family. Though we are WAY closer than we were it's still sometimes too far away.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Eventful!
So we had a playdate at the neighbors house this morning and that was really fun because it got us out of the house. The windchill was zero today and so playing outside wasn't really an option. It makes the day go by so much quicker when we get together and let the kids play for a few hours, not to mention, it's interaction with another adult around my age that's also a SAHM, so we have a lot in common!
On to the really exciting part of the day......the fire on the stove! I know this is terrible but sometimes I put water on to boil and then run around and try to multi task to get a little more done in the day. Well R let something boil over the other day and didn't clean, I had totally forgot, and the burner started on fire. Little man said, "what's that smell" and I didn't think anything of it. Upon entering the kitchen there was a small, albeit growing fire on the stove. I tried a couple things and finally resorted to the fire extinguisher, which can I say make a huge mess. Needless to say the fire got put out and then I had a huge mess to clean up. I still managed to clean it all up, remake Little Man's dinner, and make our dinner all before 7pm when I had to start tutoring. The fire happened about 5:20pm so I was pretty happy.
On Friday we are going on an outing with the neighbor to this huge indoor play area so I'm pretty excited about that because it's been so cold playing outside hasn't really been an option, oh and it's also been raining, crazy weather!!!!! It will be nice to actually go somewhere during the week. Apparently, it's all kid friendly, parents just sit back and keep an eye on their kids, and there's just tons of equipment for them to play on. After that Little Man should be worn out and expended a lot of his energy.
One of these days I'm going to have to revisit my resolutions (goals) to see how I'm doing. I see the scheduled outage is about to begin so I'd better finish up here :o)
So we had a playdate at the neighbors house this morning and that was really fun because it got us out of the house. The windchill was zero today and so playing outside wasn't really an option. It makes the day go by so much quicker when we get together and let the kids play for a few hours, not to mention, it's interaction with another adult around my age that's also a SAHM, so we have a lot in common!
On to the really exciting part of the day......the fire on the stove! I know this is terrible but sometimes I put water on to boil and then run around and try to multi task to get a little more done in the day. Well R let something boil over the other day and didn't clean, I had totally forgot, and the burner started on fire. Little man said, "what's that smell" and I didn't think anything of it. Upon entering the kitchen there was a small, albeit growing fire on the stove. I tried a couple things and finally resorted to the fire extinguisher, which can I say make a huge mess. Needless to say the fire got put out and then I had a huge mess to clean up. I still managed to clean it all up, remake Little Man's dinner, and make our dinner all before 7pm when I had to start tutoring. The fire happened about 5:20pm so I was pretty happy.
On Friday we are going on an outing with the neighbor to this huge indoor play area so I'm pretty excited about that because it's been so cold playing outside hasn't really been an option, oh and it's also been raining, crazy weather!!!!! It will be nice to actually go somewhere during the week. Apparently, it's all kid friendly, parents just sit back and keep an eye on their kids, and there's just tons of equipment for them to play on. After that Little Man should be worn out and expended a lot of his energy.
One of these days I'm going to have to revisit my resolutions (goals) to see how I'm doing. I see the scheduled outage is about to begin so I'd better finish up here :o)
Saturday, January 12, 2008
What a Smashing Night!
So my friend came over last night, who I haven't seen since October of 2006. She is getting married on March 29th so she had lots of fun wedding plans to share with me. I'm now seriously thinking about revising my resolutions because my lovely husband smashed into her car. I still can't believe this happened! He's not used to having someone in the driveway and he usually centers his car in the garage since we only have one car so all those added up into two smashed cars. My friend has had so many car accidents that she took this one rather well but again was she going to be a bitch, probably not, under the circumstances? I felt terrible and still do. We don't have the money for this and we certainly can't afford our insurance rates to go up. I didn't sleep well at all last night because I'm trying to figure out a way to make some money and contribute to our family in case my husband's second job ends. It's temporary so we never know when it's going to end. We have money in savings but I don't want to use it now when we actually have him working two jobs just in case we might need it more when he doesn't have the second job. It's always something, I swear! For all the times things have worked out for us, we've had double the amount of things not work out.
R took Little man to return something so I have the place to myself, and it's actually clean since I went into a cleaning frenzy last night since my friend was coming. I'm going to be taking a walk soon and hoping that helps my mood. I hate when things like this happen because it sends me into worrying about money mode and life is no longer fun. I did call my district office and got information about substitute teaching. I have to send an e-mail on Monday to get more information and set up an appointment. You have to interview with the superintendent of the the schools before subbing because he likes to know who's going to be in the buildings. They pay pretty good $89.60 per day but then I don't really end up making that much because daycare for Little man for 1 day costs $40. There's a shortage of subs though so hopefully I'll be able to get some jobs. My mom also offered to come for days so I could sub in which case that would be free for childcare.
So my friend came over last night, who I haven't seen since October of 2006. She is getting married on March 29th so she had lots of fun wedding plans to share with me. I'm now seriously thinking about revising my resolutions because my lovely husband smashed into her car. I still can't believe this happened! He's not used to having someone in the driveway and he usually centers his car in the garage since we only have one car so all those added up into two smashed cars. My friend has had so many car accidents that she took this one rather well but again was she going to be a bitch, probably not, under the circumstances? I felt terrible and still do. We don't have the money for this and we certainly can't afford our insurance rates to go up. I didn't sleep well at all last night because I'm trying to figure out a way to make some money and contribute to our family in case my husband's second job ends. It's temporary so we never know when it's going to end. We have money in savings but I don't want to use it now when we actually have him working two jobs just in case we might need it more when he doesn't have the second job. It's always something, I swear! For all the times things have worked out for us, we've had double the amount of things not work out.
R took Little man to return something so I have the place to myself, and it's actually clean since I went into a cleaning frenzy last night since my friend was coming. I'm going to be taking a walk soon and hoping that helps my mood. I hate when things like this happen because it sends me into worrying about money mode and life is no longer fun. I did call my district office and got information about substitute teaching. I have to send an e-mail on Monday to get more information and set up an appointment. You have to interview with the superintendent of the the schools before subbing because he likes to know who's going to be in the buildings. They pay pretty good $89.60 per day but then I don't really end up making that much because daycare for Little man for 1 day costs $40. There's a shortage of subs though so hopefully I'll be able to get some jobs. My mom also offered to come for days so I could sub in which case that would be free for childcare.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Happy Halloween and an Unfortunate Event
Little man woke up rearing to go this morning! It's so cute to see him actually excited for Halloween and able to understand that holiday. This will be his first year Trick or Treating so we have been practicing so he'll know what to do. He's pretty shy around new people so I'm not sure how he'll do saying Trick or Treat to random people. We're just going to one street in town, up to my aunt and uncle's house and then to my parent's friend's house. This morning we are going to story hour at the library where he'll have a Halloween party.
On to the unfortunate event... R was rear ended on the way to work this morning. He called me about 7:10 and some little prissy student teacher intern rear ended the car in front of her, pushing that car into R. Then the prissy little girl's father had to show up which I guess was really annoying. It's his second day of work and he already was involved in an accident, WTF??? Now I'm going to be worried about him every day. Our insurance is most definitely going to go up so that's going to suck! I swear when anything good happens to us we get to enjoy it for like one day before something bad happens. This isn't the first time it's happened, it's become a pattern. We just got R's car fixed about 2 months ago from the hurricane damage he got about 2-3 years ago. We never got it fixed in FL because body shops suck down there and it's a big headache. Not to mention the 3-4 month long waits because just about every one's car had damage from the hurricane. So this is now the third time he's had to get his car fixed!!!!!! It's a 2004 so that's almost once per year!!!!!!!!!! I'm just glad he's okay and he didn't ram into the person in front of him. He's so used to traffic backups that he's a great driver on the highway. I just feel bad that he has to go through this stuff!!!!!
Little man is very picky lately and I'm having a hard time understanding what he wants. We usually let him watch a little T.V. after breakfast and he wanted to watch some of the Cars movie. He apparently needed to watch all the previews and the menu for a long time before he wanted the movie started so he was flipping out because I turned the movie on right when the menu came up. It's so frustrating sometimes. I'm a little stressed after what happened this morning and then anticipating the library. Little man doesn't do so well there because he's a little young. I usually have my mom to help me but she's having an orientation for her students this morning so she's unavailable :o( I've been talking to him a lot this morning about behaving and listening so he doesn't miss the party. This will be his last time going because we are moving so I hope it goes well!!!!!
I hope everyone has a Happy Halloween!!!! Have a great day!!!!
Little man woke up rearing to go this morning! It's so cute to see him actually excited for Halloween and able to understand that holiday. This will be his first year Trick or Treating so we have been practicing so he'll know what to do. He's pretty shy around new people so I'm not sure how he'll do saying Trick or Treat to random people. We're just going to one street in town, up to my aunt and uncle's house and then to my parent's friend's house. This morning we are going to story hour at the library where he'll have a Halloween party.
On to the unfortunate event... R was rear ended on the way to work this morning. He called me about 7:10 and some little prissy student teacher intern rear ended the car in front of her, pushing that car into R. Then the prissy little girl's father had to show up which I guess was really annoying. It's his second day of work and he already was involved in an accident, WTF??? Now I'm going to be worried about him every day. Our insurance is most definitely going to go up so that's going to suck! I swear when anything good happens to us we get to enjoy it for like one day before something bad happens. This isn't the first time it's happened, it's become a pattern. We just got R's car fixed about 2 months ago from the hurricane damage he got about 2-3 years ago. We never got it fixed in FL because body shops suck down there and it's a big headache. Not to mention the 3-4 month long waits because just about every one's car had damage from the hurricane. So this is now the third time he's had to get his car fixed!!!!!! It's a 2004 so that's almost once per year!!!!!!!!!! I'm just glad he's okay and he didn't ram into the person in front of him. He's so used to traffic backups that he's a great driver on the highway. I just feel bad that he has to go through this stuff!!!!!
Little man is very picky lately and I'm having a hard time understanding what he wants. We usually let him watch a little T.V. after breakfast and he wanted to watch some of the Cars movie. He apparently needed to watch all the previews and the menu for a long time before he wanted the movie started so he was flipping out because I turned the movie on right when the menu came up. It's so frustrating sometimes. I'm a little stressed after what happened this morning and then anticipating the library. Little man doesn't do so well there because he's a little young. I usually have my mom to help me but she's having an orientation for her students this morning so she's unavailable :o( I've been talking to him a lot this morning about behaving and listening so he doesn't miss the party. This will be his last time going because we are moving so I hope it goes well!!!!!
I hope everyone has a Happy Halloween!!!! Have a great day!!!!
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