A Bit Stressed

Today has been one of those days where you can't pinpoint exactly what's wrong, but things just aren't "right". Maybe it has to do with the fact that I'm about to start that time of the month. Little Man has been hitting and kicking a lot and I feel it's because he's so used to being totally engaged at daycare with tons of other kids 5 days out of the week. It takes a lot of energy to keep a 2 year old occupied all day long. I sort of just lost it today because at times I really don't feel like I have it in me to be on the go, acting like a camp counselor all day, every day. I have a lot of worries that sort of occupy my brain most of the time, such as will I get a job? Will R get a job? How long are we going to have to live with my parents? When will we get health insurance? There are just a lot of unknowns and it's not really my style. I think between those worries and trying to keep a two year old engaged, taking a master's class, and trying to fit in my parents house it's just wearing on me.

R is going to Illinois Tue-Fri this week and I was supposed to go with him, but I'm not. We don't really have the money, no one to take Little man to swimming, etc.... It was just more reasonable for me to stay here so I'm pretty bummed about that. I'm also bummed because I had an assignment for class to do and I was working on part of it and wasn't completely finished. I thought I pressed the save and resume later button but instead I pushed the submit button so I submitted an assignment that wasn't finished. There is no way to get back to it and finish it without my professor reseting it for me. She is TERRIBLE at getting back to people and I'm just dreading the fact that I have to deal with her and that I messed up. I'm also a little peeved that I have to read all of "Little Women" by Wednesday and take notes because I have a paper to write about it.

On a good note I got to see my best friend's baby yesterday and she was so precious. I still can't believe that K has a baby. We took them food and cooked it for them so they would have a good meal. They were so appreciative and I was happy that I had chosen something that they really enjoyed that also helped them out. I remember what it was like to have a newborn and I would have loved for someone to bring us food. We actually ended up eating with them which wasn't our intention but it turned out so nice. V slept the whole time we were there and she made the more adorable faces. I'm scared though because I don't know if I could handle another one. I feel like I don't have enough patience. It was really cool to see that K and J were so laid back and seemed to be doing GREAT as new parents. The house was so clean and they just seemed natural at caring for a newborn.

The running is going pretty well. Tonight is 6 miles. I actually need to start stretching so I'd better sign off for now.