AHHHHHH

Apparently it's the pump that is the problem. We thought it was getting better and okay but then this morning it started overheating again and it had to be turned off. So no water again and I'm sitting here with a mouth that tastes and I'm sure smells like a** and can't shower. I guess I'm going to go the mouth wash route this morning. Why the hell is this happening????? I've been in praying overdrive for awhile now and this isn't exactly the answer to my prayers. If we do end up needing a new pump guess who will be the ones obligated to pay for it.....yep you guessed it, US, since we were the ones who forgot the sprinkler. Luckily I'll be getting my student aid refund early next week so we'll have the money although, not exactly how I had expected to use it. I was thinking it would be well spent on books, tuition for other semesters, and an emergency fund. Although, I guess this would be considered an emergency. A self created emergency!

The shitty thing is that I woke up in a great mood this morning and in the past two hours I've gone from cheery and happy to sad and depressed again!!!!! I seriously want to just melt into the wall and disappear. Or suddenly snap my fingers and return to my old life in FL. Yeah it wasn't great, but it was a hell of a lot better than this experience. I thought I was mentally preparing myself for months about how hard this was going to be, but I was NOWHERE near prepared for this. I don't know what to do and it's really hard to keep two people's spirits up when nothing good is happening. I've really tried to keep myself in good spirits, be optimistic, stay positive, etc... but I'm losing the ability and not sure how to be all happy and cheery when nothing good is happening. I guess I'll just keep praying and trying to find small little good things that happen through out the day. Yesterday I visited my best friend and her new baby. Holding the one month old little cutie definitely lifted my spirits and made me happy. Although as soon as we returned home to my parents my gloomy mood returned because it was constant nonstop talk about the pump, lack of water, etc... I just am at my wits end because I don't know what to do anymore???