Maid

That's what I feel like. I'm getting so tired of always being the one that picks up every crumb, washes every spill, does most every household chore around this house. It would be fine if it were just me, but I feel like I have two kids because I'm constantly picking up and cleaning up after my husband. I can deal with cleaning up after myself because it's my mess, I made it, I should be the one who cleans it up, but cleaning up after someone else is really starting to get on my nerves!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I understand that I am going to be cleaning up after Little man because I'm his mom. He cleans up his toys but as far as some things go, he's just too young for the deep cleaning, or serious scrubbing that is sometimes involved with being a parent. However, my husband is old enough to do it for himself, yet chooses to leave it to me. I know he's busy but I'm really feeling resentful that just because I'm the one that stays at home I've somehow transformed into a maid. I feel like I'm always cleaning and could be focusing on playing and engaging Little man more than I am. It's so frustrating. R doesn't see exactly how much of a mess he actually makes. I'm more of a clutter bug so he claims that I'm the reason the house isn't clean all the time. What he doesn't see if spills, crumbs, tracks on the floor, etc... that he leaves around on a daily basis. He's just not a clean person.

The reason I'm getting nervous is because if I can't keep up with it now and I have one kid, what's it going to be like with two? How in the world am I ever going to survive. It's makes me so mad to see my neighbor's house because literally it's ALWAYS clean and organized. I want that because life is so much more enjoyable when the house is clean and I can focus my attention on things that I actually want to do. I do not know how to convey my frustration any other way with my husband. I've tried everything and it's now to the point where he just blows up at me because he's so sick of hearing about it. I just want to scream! Not only do I never get any recognition but I feel like I'm being totally taken advantage of by him. If only I got paid for all the jobs I actually have!