My Mind is Full

Thanks for all the prayers, I really appreciate them! I'm wavering between looking at the bright side and feeling overwhelmed with emotion. I'm trying to stay strong because I know that worrying, feeling sad, getting depressed will not make the situation any better and we do need to stay positive in order to get through this. I still have a hard time talking to anyone about it without starting to cry but I think that's mainly because of people's reaction when they hear the news.

You are probably all curious about how this happened. Basically R is the type of person that wants to move mountains when he gets a new job. The university that he works at is small and has so much potential for tons of growth and new ideas. He doesn't like wasting time and wanted to implement many of his great ideas. His boss was behind him but there were other more powerful departments that were struggling with his work mentality. It's the other department with more power that is pretty much making his boss give him the option to resign or be fired. The woman over in the other department is sleeping with her boss and the boss is best friend's with the president of the university so they have tons of power. They get what they want and they do things on their terms the way they want to do it. They were crushing ideas of R's without any good reason and his boss was sticking up for him but she also wasn't the best boss and she doesn't have any power against those two other people. It was a crappy situation and R wasn't happy.

I know this is for the best but the problem is that we have very little savings because his job didn't pay much to begin with and we really NEED health care. I have my dr. appt on Monday so if I haven't gone into labor by then I'm going to beg/plead/cry/do whatever I can so that they will induce me and hopefully we'll still have a 2 week buffer before our health insurance runs out just in case there are any problems after the birth or with my recovery. I know that things happen for a reason and that there is something better in store for our future but it's very hard to not get overwhelmed and sad. I know that we have an exciting experience with the baby being born to look forward to and I'm going to try to go minute by minute, day by day.

Thanks for the support and comments! Hopefully I'll be able to post soon that I'm in labor and soon announce our new little man to everyone!