Rough Day


So reality is really starting to set in that we aren't going to have very little money coming in and lots of bills to pay. I'm handling this really well, I think, however, R is not taking this so well. It's almost as if he didn't think that he'd ever have to deal with this. Now that he is having to deal with this reality he's not been very pleasant at all. We discussed back in August when we found out about his job that we were going to stay positive because getting upset/sad/angry/etc.... wasn't going to help the situation. He's displaying all those feelings by taking them out on me. He yelled at me and made flip remarks more times that I can count today and it's really beginning to piss me off. I'm usually the one who flips out, cries, worries, etc.. and this is the first time that I am not doing any of those things. I cried today because I was sad at the way he was treating me not because I'm sad about our situation.


My attitude has been to do whatever I need to do in order to help out our situation. I'm just trying to tutor as much as possible as well as find other ways to make money. I called the local school district today and set up an interview with the superintendent to get signed up to substitute teach. I have that interview next Tuesday and hopefully will be able to start subbing shortly there after. The district pays $90 per day so that's a great rate and maybe I can get a long term position. My neighbor knows a few teachers that are going off on maternity leave so I'm going to talk to her to see if I can possibly get her friends to have me sub and consider me for some long term positions. If you get a long term position the pay rate goes up to $140 per day. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to bring money in to help our family.


I'm not sure how to deal with R. I can only imagine how he feels right now but he can't change the past. We have to take one day at a time and try to deal with things as they arise and be as proactive as possible. I was feeling really low yesterday because I filled out the application to get government assisted health insurance for the kids and me birth control for free. I also called and left a message at the local WIC office to try to set up an appointment there for help with food. I never imagined that I would ever have to apply for aid like this but we don't really have many options right now. I am doing what I need to do in order to keep our family afloat.


I was watching Op.rah yesterday with Suz.e Orm.an and these people were on asking about their 90K credit card debt, pretty much in the same situation we are in, lost their jobs, etc... and was putting everything on their credit cards, only making enough money to pay the minimum payment on their 29 credit cards. I don't want to end up like them so I made a decision to not run up my credit cards. I'm going to try to make money in order to buy only what we need. I'm planning a garage sale to get rid of things that we've accumulated over the years that we don't need so we can bring in some extra cash. It will also help us declutter the house. We also have items that can be put on E.bay and Craig.slist. I think our situation is not the best, but that we can handle it if we stay optimistic. I'm really not interested in being the only positive, optimistic person though, R needs to hold up his end of the deal and do the same.