Washer and Dryer and Advice

So R and I went to Home De.pot tonight and made our very first purchase for the new house, you guessed it, a washer and dryer. We got an incredible deal on it because there was a sale going on and the G.E. had a wonderful rebate. I am so excited that we are proud owners of two appliances. They are going to be delivered on November 2nd. R is taking that day off from work to get everything in order. The carpets are being deep cleaned on November 7th and then the big move is on the 10th.

So now that I've explained the washer and dryer you are probably wondering what advice I need from reading my title. It's actually not me who needs advice. I don't think that I've mentioned on here about a weird thing that happened about 1 month ago. I have AOL IM and one day an old guy I dated happen to IM me by mistake. He was trying to talk with his mom and hit my screen name instead. We hadn't talked in over 4 years because I kinda got sick of waiting around for him and I started dating R. So this guy was the last guy I dated before R. What was weird about him accidentally IMing me though was that I had just thought about him a couple days prior because my son had found a stuffed animal that he had given to me, Stitch from the movie Lilo and Stitch, mind you my son fell in love with it. So we chatted for awhile and kinda caught up.

We definitely weren't serious when we dated by any means so it's not like there was a huge history. B was younger than me by 3 years and he was a 6'8" guy, so we didn't have a great deal in common, yet we hit it off. We have chatted now and then since we reconnected. Today I received an IM from him (I was away and got it like 4 hours after the fact) where he wanted to ask my advice about something when I had time. I thought the request was odd and I'm just so curious what kind of advice he wants from me? The one great thing about B was that he was always happy and people flocked to him. He knew everyone and had an infectious personality. You couldn't help but feel happy when you were around him. He was incredibly sweet and kind. I actually want to pose a question to all of one person who reads my blog (you know I love you Chas!!!!) Can someone be friends with an ex boyfriend and have no "feelings" for them? I feel that way with him. He's the type of person that would be an awesome friend to have because he's just so happy and optimistic, but people in general seem to think bad of you if you are friends with someone you dated at one time or another through out your life.

Well just some food for thought and if there are more people who read my blog other than Chas I would love to hear from you on this question I posed.

It's Hump Day!

I guess it doesn't actually feel the same when your not working. I used to love to hear that it was Wednesday when I was teaching because it just made me happy to know that I had made it half way through the week. I can't explain the feeling now that I'm not working but it's definitely a blur most of the time. Sometimes I don't even know what day it is and the weeks and weekends just keep flying by.

My friend A called last night, I used to teach with her in FL. She's coming up to MI this weekend (she's originally from here) and we're going to try to get together. She was telling me though that they hired a new 4th grade teacher this year and they already want to pull her out of her classroom and hire someone to take her place. They can't fire her because she has been teaching for a couple years but at the middle school level. Apparently my old principal who hired her before he left didn't really do a great job checking references. So pretty much what I keep thinking is that I could have a job handed to me if I were just in FL. It's funny how each state is so different. I constantly think "what are we doing here in MI when there are no jobs and we are having such a hard time?" Too bad FL isn't closer, had less traffic, and the cost of living wasn't so high. I guess there are trade offs everywhere. I guess I should be happy with the fact that I am getting to spend time with Little Man and see him grow up.

We have tailgate again this weekend and my brother is actually coming home from college to watch Little Man because my parents had other plans come up. So I'm looking forward to Saturday.

Visiting a Friend

The day was not a great one, mainly due to piss poor planning. I'm the kind of person who is indecisive. I made plans for the fam and I to go visit a college friend and her husband. They live about an hour and a half away and she's expecting in the next month. I haven't seen her since her wedding in October and I just HAD to see her preggo! Well I just called her and asked her if we could come over, not making blow by blow plans as to what we were going to do when we got there. It was the town's festival so we ended up taking Little Man down to where they had rides and carnie food. R didn't stop and get cash on the way down to the park and then he got super annoyed when we obviously needed cash for food and tickets for rides. I told him to stop at a bank but he claims that he didn't fully understand what we were doing. I guess I needed to spell things out and have a blow by blow, hour by hour, typed itinerary of our visit. They ended up buying us lunch and some tickets and it wasn't really a big deal. Of course though the man's stupid ego was shattered and it ruined our day!!!! I just don't get why men are so freakin sensitive about money when it comes to other people. Oh by the way we did have some cash, just not a whole lot. So I guess R was embarrassed because he looked bad in front of my friends.

This leads to another topic. He doesn't really care for my friend. Back a long time ago before we were married and were in a long distance relationship we broke up for a short time. I of course told my friends and in hopes to make me feel better they used the line "well we never liked him anyway," which is totally classic when a girl goes through a break up. In my anger stage towards R I made the mistake of telling him that my friends didn't like him. I really think that they were just trying to make me feel better. None of them have ever said or done anything to disrespect or be mean to him. Yet he won't get off that kick that my friends don't like him and he never ceases to bring it up. I'm really starting to get pissed at him and resentful about it because it was in the past and I don't think that my friends really feel that way about him. Of course the way he acts around them I wouldn't doubt that they may feel that way. I had a point when bringing this up...... anyway one of the main perks about moving back to MI was that we would be around our friends. Well what the F*** good is that when he dislikes my friends. I feel very uncomfortable because he pretends to like them when we are in front of them but I can tell that he's pretending or acting fake. I like all his friends and don't talk crap or act like a bitch around them and it just pisses me off that he won't let it go. They are perfectly nice to him, are respectful, engage in conversation, have spouses that are friendly, yet he's got this chip on his shoulder. I guess I just don't feel it's fair and I'm really down in the dumps about this issue because I have envisioned couple trips, camping, cookouts, birthday celebrations, etc... and I just don't think that's going to happen when he acts the way he did today.

So I cried myself to sleep again when I took a nap today. I miss FL and home. It seems so weird that this is our home now. The littlest things get me down. I accidentally bought the wrong size shirts for R's birthday and Father's day. I have to drive an hour and 15 minutes to exchange them because that's the closest mall. That's about $30 worth of gas with the way that gas prices are these days. Just this last week we made 3 trips down south for various things that we needed. I dropped off a job application in person on Friday because I haven't been hearing jack from the ones I've been mailing. I also had to pick up transcripts to include in my application packet. I really hope I hear something. At least throw me a bone and offer me an interview. I put together an impressive packet, resume, cover letter, 3 letters of recommendation, transcripts, copy of my teaching certificate, and a copy of my test scores. All they asked for was resume and cover letter but I had to include more of what showed who I was. Please include me in your prayers, I need this job. I really hope everything works out for us. It's stressful not knowing what your future holds. I know in my heart this is a better environment to raise children, but at what expense do you give up what makes you happy. I'm scared! I desperately want to be happy, but sometimes things are beyond your control. I try to keep my spirits up and look on the bright side, but it's hard.