To Try or Not to Try?

R and I are trying to decide if we would like to start trying to conceive baby #2 in the new year? It's a hard decision because we are moving from Florida back to Michigan in 5 months without jobs and insurance possibly. R may get a job before we move and that would be great, but he also could not. I'm not going to start looking yet because with teaching nothing really opens up until summer. I would also probably hamper my ability to get a job if I were to get pregnant. I do currently have a second job online tutoring which I could keep doing and I'm going to be doing my master's degree so I could always take some time off.

Last night I took out my Nuva Ring (sorry if TMI) and threw it away. R and I spent a lot of time talking about it and we figure that we can't keep trying to find a convenient time to conceive because something is ALWAYS going to come up, but on the otherhand would it be smart to get pregnant and have to switch OB's in the middle, possibly have to pay out of pocket for dr. appt's and risk not having insurance by the time the baby was born, which would be really doubtful, but possible. I'm such a nervous worrying type person that all that was racing through my mind this morning and I actually fished my ring out of the trash and put it back in. I haven't told R yet because I'm not sure that I want to have it back in. He is the type of person that always says "we'll be fine," "everything will work out" etc... I'm the total opposite and am always worry about what if things aren't fine and what if things don't work out? I dislike that quality about myself and I always attempt to worry less or be more calm, but it never works. The fact is that I don't want a bazillion years between my children. I was 5 years older than my brother and it sucked. I'm also worried about what my parents would think if I got pregnant right now because there are so many things that are up in the air.

So I'm trying to figure out right now what I should do?????? Happy New Years Eve everyone!!!!!!