Still Here

I'm very curious to if I'm going to make it until my next appointment next Monday???? I've been having contractions in spurts here and there but nothing that intensifies or is timable. I just keep hoping that my water will break or that the contractions will just get stronger so that I'll know this baby is ready to come on his own. If I go to the dr on Monday he already told me that he would induce me by breaking my water at 39 weeks, which is next Tuesday. Normally, I would say "no thanks, we'll wait it out" but given our circumstance I don't think I would hold out. I don't think my 6 week check up is going to end up falling in September but it would be really nice if this baby ended up coming soon so there is a possibility that I could get the appointment in before insurance runs out.

I finally got medicine for my UT.I yesterday around 12pm so I took it right away. It's twice per day so I took it at 11pm last night and will keep adjusting it by an hour until I get on an 9am and 9pm schedule because I don't really feel like staying up until 11pm or 12am to take a pill. I'm feeling better though so that's really nice! I really hate drama at the end of pregnancies, it happened with Little man too. I have perfect, no drama pregnancies and then at the end all hell breaks loose. I'm praying for a smooth and uneventful next week or so (however long it is). Tomorrow afternoon I'm supposed to call the dr. to see what the results were from the urine culture so they can be sure the meds I'm on will take care of the problem or if there happens to be nothing I can discontinue taking them.

Had a rough night last night. I learned that R maybe isn't able to talk extensively about the job he's leaving at this point. We talked a great deal about how messed up his work place is on our walk and were having really great conversation. I really think after our talk that he's lucky he's leaving, but then afterwards he was weird. He was over reactive about weird things and just seemed "on edge" for the rest of the night. I guess one thing I'm scared about is the role I'm supposed to play in all of this. I've definitely gotten over being sad and crying. I know that I have to stay strong and supportive but I don't know how to act. We had another conversation about jobs over IM this morning and I was taking the neutral type stance where I would offer pros and cons and food for though about what he was saying, not being judgemental in any way, but then he said I was being judgemental. I guess I'm going to try to just take to listening and nodding my head. I'm not sure what role he expects me to play throughout this whole process. I've never been in this situation before so I have no idea what to do or what he needs. Have any of you ever been in this type of situation before? What did you do, say, how did you act, what did your significant other find especially helpful? I want to keep this experience a positive one for R and myself.

I have another long "to do" list today so I'd better get some breakfast and start tackling my tasks. The main one that I want to finish is hospital packing! Have a great day!