Showing posts with label tired. Show all posts
Showing posts with label tired. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

"Your Earrings Look Really Nice"

Ah the joys of substituting in high school. I subbed for freshman World Geography today and received the above compliment from one of the freshman boys, lol. The day seemed really long because the class periods are over an hour, and lunch seemed really short because after you walk the miles to the teacher's lounge there's not much time left to eat. The school is huge! I'm challenged with directions anyway and wasn't given a map so yeah, I got lost several times. I'm there again tomorrow subbing for a resource room. I talked to the sub who was in the class I'm in tomorrow and she said they were a little difficult, not sure how that's going to go. Friday I'm subbing in the afternoon in a business class.

Baby M slept in his crib last night!!! We do have a white noise lamb (it's a stuffed animal that has different white noise settings) and that's been working well for him. I was able to stay awake while feeding him by watching a taped T.V. program. R had to help out a little because he was a little fussy after he ate and I needed to get back to sleep. I didn't get to bed last night until after 11:30 so I was pretty tired today. Luckily, I was able to get a nap in after I got home and before I started tutoring.

R is going to Denver next week for a conference where he is doing several presentations so I'm looking forward to having the week off from subbing. I feel like I'm burning the candle at both ends sometimes so I'm definitely ready for a break. I just need to get through tomorrow and then Friday should be easy since it's only a half day and it's in the afternoon. R still hasn't heard anything about the SC job or any other jobs he's applied for. I'm really hoping that something works out soon. SC is apparently really strict about their hiring guidelines so I'm not sure that's going to work out. I wish something would work out soon though because I'm really tired of not knowing what our future holds. There are some days that I'm just really ticked off that we're having to go through this. I was so hoping for some stability rather than always being in a state of limbo.

Well I'm dead tired so I'm off to bed.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Working Woman

I'm going to be very busy this week! This weekend I was able to pick up some more sub jobs so now I am working every day this week. Today was a half day in the afternoon at the middle school. It went pretty well but the kids were quite obnoxious. Tomorrow I'm at the same building I was at last week doing the one on one test reading with individual kids. Wednesday through Friday I'm at the high school. I have social studies on Wednesday, Math and resource room on Thursday and then a half day on Friday in a business class. I'm hoping that high school won't be terrible but I'm a little nervous after the obnoxious kids today at the middle school level. It was nice today though because the teacher I was subbing for was still there when I got there so I was able to ask questions and get to know her a little bit. Another added bonus was that I didn't have to pump since it was a half day and so close to my house.

To add to the busy week I'm also tutoring for 15 hours in the evening. Things are starting to get overwhelming! I think my biggest issue is that I'm not able to get enough sleep. Overall I've been coping pretty well and don't feel overly tired throughout the day but I know that I should be getting at least 7 or 8 hours per night, which I'm definitely not getting. Baby M is still up every 2-3 hours per night. The problem isn't him getting up it's that neither one of us can stay awake for a feeding. Last night for example, he woke up at 1am to eat and I brought him out to the couch to eat and I kept nodding off. I awoke at 3:30am and he was sleeping and had only eaten on one side. I had a terrible kink in my neck and definitely didn't get quality sleep. I'm not sure how much he's getting at a feeding, nor am I sure how much he should be eating at this point. I think I would feel so much better if I could feed him for 20-30 minutes and go back to my bed and actually get quality sleep. I think I may start setting my alarm so I don't fall asleep for long periods of time.

The other problem is that I can't get him to sleep in conventional type places such as his crib or bassinet. If we put him down in either place he's up less than 10 minutes. I've been getting him to sleep the longest in his car seat, bouncy seat, on his boppy, etc.... It's really frustrating but in the middle of the night I try everything just so he will sleep and I can get back to sleep. The sound of water also soothes him to sleep so sometimes I'll turn the shower on and put him in the bathroom in his bouncy seat or last night I put his bouncy seat by the dishwasher and that seemed to lull him right to sleep. We are really focusing on trying to get him to sleep in his crib though, by putting him in there during the day so he's getting used to the feeling. So far he's been doing a little better.

Lastly, R is being recruited for a job in Sout.h Caro.lina. He had a phone interview today and knows the woman recruiting him pretty well. He's actually presenting at a conference with her at the end of the month. She really wants him for the job and they are trying to work things out with HR because apparently they are very strict about the criteria and he doesn't quite have the 6 required years. He had 4 years experience and a master's degree but apparently they don't take his master's into consideration. If he gets the job he'll be starting probably the middle of November. We decided that I would stay here in MI with the kids until we were sure the job was going to work out as well as until we could make arrangements for our house. He has not heard a single thing from any job here in MI so we're getting pretty desperate.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I Could Go to Bed

It's not even 6:30pm but I am confident if I went to sleep right now I could sleep sound until morning. The past two days have been great but so very busy. I've been getting up at 4:30am just so I can feed Baby M twice, get ready, pack up all my pump parts and necessities, and not be rushed. The past two days were a great way to ease back into work. I was reading the MI standardized test to individual students because they required it read to them in a one on one setting. So in the past two days I have read the math portion of the test, consisting of two parts and 58 questions, four different times. By read I mean, "What is the remainder when 20 is divided by 3? A. 1, B. 0, C. 2, and D. 4. Though it was tedious it was a great day because I had so much time off. When my student was done I had a really long lunch break, perfect for pumping, and then when my second student I tested in the afternoon was done I was free to leave for the day. So yesterday I had a break from about 10-12 and got to leave at 1:40, today I had a break from 9:45-12 and then got to leave at 1:15pm. I couldn't have asked for better jobs. I had plenty of time to go to the car and pump during my lunch break and I was able to get home early enough to feed Baby M his 1:30ish feeding. He had 3 bottles yesterday and 2 today.

The only downfall is that I'm exhausted. I've had about 8 hours of sleep between the two nights and then I'm tutoring 5 hours tonight and tutored for 3 hours last night. I have a total of 18 hours tutoring this week. I feel empowered though that I'm contributing so much money to our family. R called about our mortgage today and we're going to be able to wait to pay Nov which is going to be awesome, well awesome given our situation. So things are going okay for right now but R is still having a hard time. He's at least apologized and is communicating his feelings more.

Friday, September 12, 2008

So Tired!

I'm about 2/3 of the way through the birth story so that will be posted soon, I promise. I wrote the majority of it in one sitting and then let it sit for awhile so I could be sure to add little details here and there that I forgot. This week has gone pretty good. The past 2 nights though Baby M has been nocturnal so that's been really rough. He sleeps most of the day but then gets really fussy and stack feeds from about 10pm-1am. Last night he didn't settle down for bed until around 3:30am. It makes for a really long day. I always have grand plans to catch a nap here or there but that never really seems to pan out. I can't complain though because I've at least been getting a shower on a daily basis :o)

Little man has been doing really well. He really enjoys preschool! It's been a little over a week since he started and he's already sick though :o( It's just a cold, but I'm really hoping he doesn't pass it kindly to his little bro. Mainly he just has a stuffy/runny nose and coughing a little. R and I have been making it a point to spend individual time with him as well as show him one on one attention with the baby not around. I took him to the neighbors to play yesterday for about an hour and he really enjoyed that. Overall, he's been doing very well and definitely loves his baby bro.

We've been getting a lot of rain lately but we've had some just gorgeous days with cooler temps and sunshine. I've been trying to get out for a walk everyday with Baby M which usually puts him to sleep. Baby M is much feistier than Little man. He's picking up his head for pretty long periods of time for a newborn. He always has his hands up by his face which makes it nearly impossible to feed him. Every time I need to feed him I have to pull his arms down and then the quickly pop right back in front of his face. He his so strong so pulling his arms away feels like I'm going to break him! He's already scooted himself out of his bopp.y.

Feeding has been going pretty well. He's pretty much eating every 2-3 hours but then at night I'm not sure what his deal is because he prefers to be attached to me for 2-3 hours straight from like 10pm-12 or 1am. I guess we're going to try to keep him up more during the day in hopes that he'll sleep more during the night. Prior to the night before last he was sleeping 5-6 hours at a time, still fussy from about 10pm-12am but after that he'd pretty much sleep for a good stretch without waking up too much. I would have to wake him up to feed so I wasn't too uncomfortable. I should have known that was too good to be true.

Well that's all for now. I'm going to work on finishing the birth story today and hopefully get some more pictures posted. We have a really cute one of the four of us.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

3 weeks and 3:30am

Okay so I cannot believe that in somewhere around 3 weeks, maybe sooner, we'll have our new little baby boy here in our arms. I'm starting to freak out a little bit!!!! I'm feeling like I just want to keep him in my belly forever because I'm so scared of the thought of having two kids. I know this is probably normal but I would love some advice as to how I might deal with this fear. I'm not worried about loving another child, just adapting to life with two. The biggest worry is that Little man is so used to being the center of attention and that having this new baby will turn his perfect life upside down. I am fully aware and plan to include him in helping and taking on the new Big Brother role, but I'm worried about having enough time and energy for him. I suppose that it will appear and that I'm making too big of a deal about it, but since he's older I feel like it's going to be harder. He's had us to himself longer and is more used to the universe revolving around him.

So on to the 3:30am.....the time I woke up this morning. It's not that I couldn't sleep, it's that my husband couldn't. He was worrying about work and laying there awake so he decided to get up. That caused me to lay there worrying about him. I tried desperately to fall back asleep but it didn't work. I had to drive my mom to the airport at 5:30am so I was already going to be up early, but hadn't planned on being up THAT early. I got home about 6:10am from taking my mom and ended up laying back down in bed. I didn't feel like I slept a wink but I did wake up at 7:15am to the sound of Little man watching TV so I must have dozed off a little bit. Getting up was rough but I ended up taking a 2 hour nap when Little man was napping.

I'm dead tired again so I'm off to bed. Surprisingly the laundry is almost done!!! I feel like there is so much more to do though before the baby arrives.

Monday, July 07, 2008

Time To Relax

It was an exhausting weekend but we had a good time. I can't believe how fast time flies. We got up to the in laws about 10:30 on Thursday night after riding in the car for almost 5 hours. Little man was at my parents house so we got a break when we picked him up because we stayed about 30 minutes to load his stuff and eat some dinner. The fireworks happened to be on Thursday night at 10:30pm so we ended up skipping them and pretty much just going to bed because we didn't want to rush down to the crowded beach as soon as we arrived.

Friday we got up, got ready, and headed to the parade at 10am. It was a long parade and Little man wasn't sold on the whole experience, he did however, love the candy that was thrown! Afterwards we walked back home, had lunch, and then put Little man down for his nap. R and I went downtown to the Arts and Crafts fair (which I swear is identical every year) and then hit up some stores downtown. We headed back and Little man was up so we hung out and made dinner. We didn't really do anything exciting on Friday night except took a walk down to the beach following the race course that R was going to run the next morning.

Saturday morning we woke up early and R ran in the 5K race. This was the same race we both did last year, which was our first 5K race that we did together. It was very poorly organized this year and we ended up having to wait around for 2 1/2 hours for the awards to be passed out after the race was over. Had we known it was going to take so long we could have walked home and showered, ate, etc.... R ended up getting 3rd place in his age group and ran the course quite a bit faster than last year. It was the first race that he could actually compare his times since it was the same course.

By the time we got home it was lunch time and then nap time for Little man. R and I showered and then walked downtown again to hit up more of the shops. We ate lunch at a cute little pub restaurant and then got root beers at the coffee shop and played checkers. It was about 4pm when we arrived back home and we wanted to take Little man to the beach for a little while. It was a great time to go because the sun wasn't so intense and people were leaving so there were parking spots up close. Little man LOVED the beach! He's been before but it's been quite a long time. When he was a younger he didn't like the sand much but he really had a great time making sand castles and going in the lake. We headed home about 6:30 and then made dinner. R's friend was in town and so after dinner we got Little man in bed and went over to visit him and his wife.

Yesterday we got up, got ready, took Little man to the park, and then went and had lunch at our favorite pizza place. We got on the road about 12:45 and made it home about 5:30pm. We unpacked and organized stuff a bit and then went to bed. I'm still exhausted and I have exactly 3 days to recuperate before we hit the road again for another busy weekend.

Hope everyone had a nice 4th of July!!!!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

One Down and More Sleep Needed!

So yes, I did finally finish all my work for class last night and I submitted it all. Today was the actually due date of everything so I'm just going to use today to check to be sure I have all the required work completed. This leaves me with a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and one class left to focus on. I'm almost done and it feels sooooooo good.

So for some reason I thought it would be a good idea to stay up late last night. R and I had a late dinner, we talked a lot about his feelings (which he brought up!!!) and then I just had to read a chapter in my book before bed. When I finally bedded down it was past midnight!!!!! What was I thinking? I need to get better about going to bed at 9 or 10pm so I can get up early and get things done before Little man wakes up. Needless to say I'm so tired right now and will for sure take a nap during the day today as well as go to bed early tonight!

I have one assignment left to finish for my other class, which I hope to get done today or tomorrow. The bridal shower I'm planning is this weekend so I would like to get school work done so I can start focusing on that. I can't believe it's already the end of June! Pretty much everything is done I just have to put together little boxes for our favors, get cheese and olives, and then help my mom get everything done once we get to my parent's house. We are preparing all the food ourselves so tomorrow night and Saturday morning will be busy.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Christmas and Curtain

Our Christmas was nice. I made brunch in the morning, my mom, dad, and brother were here and we opened Santa presents Christmas morning and did all other presents the night before. R made a huge dinner in the afternoon on Christmas day and my grandma, grandpa, and two aunts came to join us and see the house. It was a nice day, but I'm exhausted!

So on to the curtain. Little man got cash from my grandparents and my aunt. I decided that I was going to buy a curtain for his room since we previously had a blanket hanging up in the window. I suppose I can't really call myself a decorator because I hate the curtain. I decided that since the walls were blue I didn't want a blue curtain. I decided to go with white since it would match the molding in the room and be a nice contrast with the blue. I wanted a special black out panel though because I like to keep the room dark at nap time and at night during the summer when he's going to be when it's still light out. I got the tab like curtains with a blackout panel (also white) to go behind it. R hung the curtain and I just don't like it. There is no way I'm taking it back because it would be way too much trouble since it's already hung. Hopefully it will grow on me and I'll begin to like it.

So we basically only have one day to relax since we tackled the mall today to buy little man's curtain, it was so busy! Friday we head up to R's parent's house for Christmas. I'm just really tired and ready to get back on our schedule. I like R being off but it always seems to throw off our schedule. Hosting people at our house was a lot of work and I've just been really tired. We're still trying to clean up from that and get everything back in order after the holiday.