What's Wrong With Fridays?

It's so weird, but Fridays always suck for me. They are just my worst day of the week. Of course today was no different. R calls me at work because a credit card company just called looking for me.....WTF??? I totally missed paying my bill and I had no idea I had gone over my limit. This is absolutely no like me and I'm personally very embarrassed. I couldn't contain my tears when I had to call and rectify the situation because I know that they get this all the time and I'm not that type of person. They asked me why it happened and I was honest and just said that I overlooked it. I would have usually made up something, but I couldn't even come up with anything that would make this okay. I am very upset with myself. I'm not sure when it happened but I'm terrible with money. I used to be so good and never spend anything. I remember when I was little and my mom actually had to encourage me to spend a little money now and then because I saved every little penny. It's not that she didn't want me to spend, but she wanted me to realize that it was okay every once and awhile. Sometime between then and now I apparently became stupid with my money.

Another reason I know that this payment got overlooked is because I have so much on my plate. Between work, school, mom, wife, etc... it's getting a bit overwhelming. I hate looking around and seeing the place a wreck. I hate missing out on spending time with my child. I hate feeling like there aren't enough hours in the day. I hate not being able to relax without feeling guilty. I'm so failing at life right now and it's so hard to accept. I just want to be able to do what I need to do, do it well, and feel descent at the end of the day. I know I suck at time management, prioritizing, etc... and I try to improve, but I feel like I'm just sinking farther and farther into a hole.

Tomorrow is my 27th birthday and at the rate I'm going I'll be in debt until I die. It's so depressing. I don't feel like I buy anything for myself. I don't really even go shopping. I got a nice birthday present, a bill collector. Life is so hard and I wish that I could handle all my responsibility well and not feel like a failure. I guess I can be happy that Friday is almost over.